For a long time the words of Rich Mullins’ music have captivated me. You might remember him as the author of songs like “Awesome God,” and “Step by Step” (for those of you who were in the late-80s-early-90s Christian music scene). His lyrics have continued to grab at my heart even now, 14 years after his death.
During my senior year in college, Rich’s album A Liturgy, A Legacy, and a Ragamuffin Band was one of my favorites to listen to. It came along at a perfect time for me, a time when my faith seemed so weak and temptations seemed so strong. I had spent the year before submerging myself in countless hours of pornography. I had started losing hope in Christ’s ability to save me from the power porn had over me. That year, track 4, “Hold Me Jesus,” became my sincere prayer for porn addiction, asking him to pull me from the mess I was in.
It recently came to my attention that Rich Mullins actually wrote the song for this very purpose: he too was aching to be delivered from the temptations of pornography. Below is some concert footage of Rich playing this song in Lufkin, Texas, explaining the genesis of the song.
Don’t Do Life Alone
I really appreciate what Rich had to say about not doing life alone. Often our battles with temptation are worse than they should be because we’ve bought into a just-me-and-Jesus sort of spirituality. God does promise us freedom from the grip of sin, fresh power within our hearts changing our desires. But He promises these things to His body, the church, not just to his individual followers. We need one another.
We need responsive, gospel-driven accountability. As good accountability partners, we need to not only hear an account of our friends’ sins, but give an account of God’s grace—a grace that not only saves us from the guilt of sin, but also from the grip of sin. (Coming Clean: Overcoming Lust Through Biblical Accountability)
Lyrics to “Hold Me Jesus”
Well sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
So hold me Jesus ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace
And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It’s so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart
So hold me Jesus ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace
Surrender don’t come natural to me
I’d rather fight You for something I don’t really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I’ve beat my head against so many walls
Now I’m falling down I’m falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin
I’m singing hold me Jesus ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace
The story I heard (though I don’t remember where) is that he was alone in a hotel room in Europe somewhere. Nobody would know. Nobody would find out. And he wrote this gem of a song instead of turning on the TV.
I wish I had the opportunity to get to know Rich before he died. At least we still have his music…
I thought I was a follower of Jesus but poRn has such a such an effect on my life.I feel like IM crucifixing Christ all over every time I fail.
First, it is important to note every sin should sting our conscience knowing it was nailed to the cross with Christ. It is right and good for you to feel guilt for your sin. However, there is such a thing as crushing or chronic guilt: this is when our guilt is coupled with the false belief that our sins are somehow insurmountable or unforgivable. This only leads to despair. An understanding of the cross is the only remedy. As the song Amazing Grace says, “Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, and grace my fears relieved.” The cross simultaneously shows both the ugliness of sin and the overwhelming love of God for sinners.
That song has anointing right through it for me, anything of Christ has anointing power , it’s time we all look deeper than the ways of man made religione and how it’s destroying our world , we need to look up to Him , and allow His revelations to transform our way of thinking, the metamorphism take place , and once we really grasp the reality that we are a child of the one true living God , no weapon formed against us will ever hurt us and we will set the captives free and once they are free in Him they are free indeed Yashua it’s on it’s way that’s Gods word not mine I just actually believe it all and just want to share so much what I have inside me , we are going to greater things real deal it excites me ,
Oh wow I have had this song in my playlist for 5 years. Never knew it was an oldie like that. That song always brings me to tears. Pray for me, brothers and sisters, I’m battling with the spirit of lust and I can’t fight it alone.
I, too struggle with pornography addiction. As a woman, it’s difficult to find resources and help. I am caught between my lust and my desire for restoration. I a m lost, desperate, and sometimes feel hopeless that restoration is possible.
Here’s a list of resources you may find helpful.
Sorry. I guess I could have watched the video before commenting. My bad.
i need prayer alot i want to stop using porn but it is har for me to stop. i also have alot of personal prpblems any and all help is greatly need and useful. i will be the most thank ful pers on .
i will pray for you and could u plz pray for me???
@sparklez – You are in our prayers here at CE.
plz pray for me 2
Keep reading Gods promises hevgotvyourvback
i really need help breaking my porn addiction and I don’t want to waste my teen years and the rest of my life with the gigantic secret
plz keep me in your prayers
i will pray for you. i also admire you for coming to terms with it so early. i’m kinda hhave problems as well. dont worry. we can do it.
keep me in your prayers about this habit
Please pray for me! Am a leader at a church and very respected but i have opened my life to demonic influence through porn and masterbation and fornication! Am having lots of interpersonal relationships becuse of porn! Its hard to do any work! Though i preach about Jesus i don think am saved! i need help am a hypocrite and a liar and a cheat! Pray for me!
Pretender, if you are a well respected church leader then there are some fundamental things that you should solidify in your faith. 1) No matter what sin we have committed we have assurance of our salvation (excluding the “unforgivable sin” which is not even debated as porn, masturbation, or fornication). 2) You need to have a source of accountability among your team of staff. Everyone has temptations, from the pastors of mega churches to the 3rd grade boy in Mrs. Smiths Sunday School class. Your staff should understand if you are asking for accountability. 3) If you are struggling with porn, masturbation, and fornication to the extent of not being able to minister to your church, then you need to ask for a temporary leave so that you can straighten out your life with the help of the church. You don’t want to bring the church down, and they should understand that you are a human capable of sin just like everyone else.
There is so much to say and the right words are eluding me, but there is hope through the one who is Hope. I became an addict at 9 years old and I lived a life of lies and secrets until I was 16. You can overcome this. God is by your side; He has provided you with Christian community to help you through this. I am 19 now and I still struggle with temptation everyday, but I’ve heard it best through this analogy. Addiction is like a horse. You have to be able to control it. You don’t do that by shooting it dead, but rather you break it so that you are the one in charge.
Setting Captives Free is an incredible website that I highly recommend. It’s not a 12 Step or anything like that. It is a Scripture based course with accountability to help overcome addiction.
Blessings
Keep going to the altar God said he will never leave you nor forsake you he got your back the devil is a liar
can you guys please pray for me? i need help with a porn addiction. I tend to masturbate while i’m watching porn. First i feel this heat build up, then i start getting all panicky and stuff. Please, someone, i need help.
@bruce – We will pray for you, yes. Please, also, look around our blog for more resources. You might find something here that can help you. I recommend you start here with this e-book, Your Brain on Porn.
PRay for me i wacth porn vedeo i cnt stop .jusus only cn save me
*thank you I hAve found my way in god and have worked to find something bigger instead I finally found god
Please pray for me…My porn addiction is killing me i just cant give up..i try to stop but then i keep failing all the time…i wish i would just die because i hate myself so much. Only Jesus can save me but i feel so alone and depressed
Hi eddy88. I would highly encourage you to reach out to a good counselor for help. Find someone you can trust who can help to diagnose the problem for you. Overcoming this problem without good mentoring, accountability, and counsel is very difficult. I have been there and I remember how awful it felt.
I became a christian this past school year. I too have been suffering from porn addiction. Only Jesus can save me.
Can you pray for me?
@Warren – Will do. Thanks for stopping by. Look around and see if any of our other resources might help you.
Please pray for me. I’ve been struggling for too long with this addiction to porn. I want it out of my life for good!
Will do, Phillip. Thanks for stopping by!
I’ve been watching porn for about a year and a half. I tried so hard to quit but I just couldnt. I need sum1 to pray for me.
You are in our prayers, Lance. Have any of the resources here been a help to you?
I am a porn addict,,Lord Jesus please save me,,,i need prayers coz i am getting worst everyday of my life,,i even started practising gay,,I am a born christain,i lived all my life in the church,,but since i started watching porn,,my life became a misery”please pastors,brothers,and sisters i need your prayers in the name of the lord,,
Amen
@ clovis ngwa Don’t worry i know 2 ppl personally who overcame that demon, I know some ppl may not like the term demon but that’s what we’re all battle against daily… Don’t be discouraged or let these demonic spirits tell you that you can’t get better or that it’s hopeless, it is tough to get over porn so I can only imagine what you’re going through Clovis, all i know is that we all need to trust in Lord Jesus bc him we can’t do it alone, none of us can… My only advice is to ask God to give you a reminder before you do it, I asked God to make me use the bathroom (and i mean #2) every time I was about to watch porn and I promise to you all God does it!! God loves us all no matter what we do, but we need to change out of the love we have for him and stay in your word aka read your bibles and try fasting some demons can only be exorcised thru fasting and praying… With all our cries and prayers combined God definitely hears us and he will help, BELIEVE IT!! I’m also praying for us all right now but pray for me also + GOD BLESS US ALL WITH STRENGTH AND RESISTANCE TO OUR FLESH… IN JESUS’ MIGHTY NAME, AMEN
thanks very much pastor
i believe that with GOD everything is possible
God surely save us if we have trust on ourselves
Actually, the entire point of Jesus coming down to earth to save us is because we can’t save ourselves. It’s by God’s marvelous grace that we can find freedom, not our own works.
I know guilt is wrong but when it gets that bad I will try to get on my hands and knees and beg God for deliverance.
Please pray for me, i have been battling with porn addiction for years now and I almost overcame it years ago, I stopped for a long time and I found my faith. I knew the Lord more than i ever have, my relationship with him was better than it ever has been, but i am scarred it was better than it ever will be. I fell back into addiction and i have also fell into fornication with my partner many times. I feel so incredibly distant from God, often i sit and i try to focus on him when I’m tempted but it’s almost like i can actually hear my inner heart saying reject him. i hate this, its the most horrible feeling ever and its effecting my whole life with God. I lead an evangelism ministry at university and i fear its affecting that too. Please pray for me, mostly pray for the people i lead and my partner that i would not bring them down with me.
I don’t want moderation if I am an addict with feeling I want the mind of beautiful Christ.
I Don’t want moderation as an addict I want the beautiful mind of Christ Jesus.
I too struggling from porn addiction the lord(god and jesus) has been good to me i feel like if im watching porn i let the lord and my self down
Please pray for me, I’ve struggled with porn and masterbaition for 8 years. I don’t want to live with this dirty secret anymore it is ruining my relationships with people and life. I just want to break free. Thanks.
Sean, have your seen some of our resources? I encourage you to click on our “Struggling?” tab above.
PLEASE pray for me also a porn addiction and mine got to the point that I stumbled on very young girls in bikinis and some nudity my wife found out about it now I’m going to lose my life wife and kids I also thinking of suicide but that would be selfish and don’t want to burden my family with that. I NEED HELP
Have you reached out for help among those you know, Gerhard? I’m so sorry to hear about your situation.
Hi friends I also share your troubles I will pray for you all and please remember me in yours through the love of Jesus we can beat this but by ourselves we can never win the battle if anyone would like to pray more directly you can e mail me at lovesjesus316@yahoo.com
Please, pray for me…this struggle is killing me.
I wish there were no Internet, the world would be so much better without porn…Please pray that Jesus would deliver me.
Hello everyone I too am a porn addict still struggling since my early teenage years and I am 37 now with a beautiful wife who still loves me despite my shortcomings, but I still struggle everyday. Getting to that point to where I am so tired of it and what it is. We have always wanted children and still haven’t…and I’d like to believe that it is because of this sin that we can’t have children or that he wont allow us to. That might be a lie from satan, I’m not sure. Anyway pray for us, that I can beat this with God’s help and that He blesses us some day with children of our own. It saddens me to see my wife who has wanted kids all her life to not be able to have them. Thank you all and God bless you.
Will do, Keith. It might be jumping to conclusions to see your childlessness as a judgement from God. Remember faithful men and women like Zechariah and Elizabeth: though they were righteous, they had no children until God miraculously brought John the Baptist to them.
Look around our blog and see if you find anything that might be helpful. I highly, highly recommend you look at this video series by Brad Hambrick (it’s free) called “False Intimacy.” It will help you greatly if you watch and work through all of them, doing all the activities, especially if you have others holding you accountable through the process.
hello,,,dear brothers& sisters may Go
d bless u all….our lord jesus christ will free us frome our sins…..all we have to do trust in him..i my sulf is strugaling with pornigraphy but I will not give up not my own strength but by jesus.pray for me..OUR jesus will not left us behind…..God bless u all!!!!
I see backsliding is the same as Romans one.
hello brothers may our lord bless u all …we will scape from this satanic trap soon we shouid trust our lord jesus christ..bless u all…pray for me
recently ,i fall in porn addiction.please pray for me..I want to be a jesus child
Have you talked to anyone about your sin?
I’m 15 and I have harbored homosexual desires and watched pornography. I’ve also masturbated after promising God that I wouldn’t. Please, please pray for me. I love Jesus but these vices continuously prevent me from fulfilling a strong relationship with Him. Sometimes, I feel like He’s so far away and He probably wants nothing to do with me but on the other hand, I know that He will never leave me and neither will He forsake me. Please help:(
Hi Adrian,
I get this struggle you’re facing. Part of what it means to walk in the Spirit is to listen to the voice of the Spirit within that cries out “Abba, Father!” It means believing against all your doubts that God really is for you and not against you, that He is Father, that He has adopted you, and that you are His. Repentance comes not by thinking of God’s justice, but by thinking about his kindness (Romans 2:4).
This may sound overly simplistic. When fighting the deteriorating affects of sin in our hearts we cry out for action steps, for methods that summon our willpower, not sentiments about love. But this is the very thing the gospel of Christ warns against.
Paul boldly taught that the old religious regulations of asceticism do not work. “If with Christ you died to the elemental spirits of the world, why, as if you were still alive in the world, do you submit to regulations—‘Do not handle, Do not taste, Do not touch’” (Colossians 2:20-21). The old try-harder ethics are useless: “they are of no value in stopping the indulgence of the flesh” (2:23).
Instead, Paul says real change is first about knowing who we already are. “You have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God” (3:3). “You have been raised with Christ” (3:1). “You have put off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self” (3:9-10).
As far as God is concerned, you are already His. God’s love for you cannot be overstated. The God and Father of our Lord Jesus loves you with an endless love, and you have done nothing to merit it or deserve it. He loves you despite all your unlovability, despite your lingering sinful desires. Though in your sin you are undeserving and undesirable, He loves you when your mind disavows it, your heart doges it, and your soul dismisses it. He loves you right now as you are, not as you think you should be.
This, the New Testament says, is the key to unlocking God’s power for change. Being filled with all of God’s fullness comes about not by knowing God’s power but by comprehending the breadth and length and height and depth of “the love of God that surpasses knowledge” (Ephesians 3:19).
Walking in the Spirit is first about relating to God in our hearts as adopted children, recognizing that God is not holding back His love until we get our act together. He loves His true children now in the midst of their unworthiness. There is an unfathomable difference between relating to God as an orphan and relating to God as a son.
Hi Luke and everyone else who is reading. . .
I greet you all in the matchless name of Jesus Christ, my Savior, my Lord, my First True Love
I haven’t visited this site until my last post (26 April 2014), and the reason for visiting here again is because I have repeated my sins- now, more intense than ever. Just recently, I drank alcohol, smoked cigarettes, masturbated, watched pornography and harbored homosexual desires- and I confess with my head bowed down in shame. Although I have been faithless, Jesus has always, always been faithful. I’ve had a lot of regrets and possessed a lot of guilt for my wicked actions but I thank Jesus for his unconditional, never-ending love and His great mercy which has been my pillar of strength. Today, as I type out this message, I want everyone to know what an awesome God we serve. I want everyone to know that there is Hope and He is that Hope. Actually, He is our only Hope. Right now, I am celebrating my redemption. I am celebrating the fact that I am loved beyond measure by the One who died just so that I can be here today. As I approach 16 years on the 11th of June, I want to give God all praise, glory and honor for everything- good and bad- that has occurred in my life. I want to thank Him for my success and failures and I hope that you will pray for me. Please pray that I will follow Jesus but this time, there will be no turning back. Please pray that there will be a burning desire for Him, each day in my heart. And I hope that you will be able to find your freedom in Christ Jesus. Just remember: you may not be perfect but Jesus thinks you’re to die for<3
I am married but now studying in university.My wife and family live away from me and i visit them once a while.This problem keeps coming back now and then even though sometime i seem to grow close to God i end up with this sin.I seem to cherish this even though i know it is wrong and am offending God. I believe God loves me even though i am a sinner but that doesnt allow me to keep sinning deliberately and keep hurting Him. Please pray i want to be completely delivered and to enjoy His blessings and peace.
Hi Dr. Sam Raj. I appreciate your candor here. I pray you find some more answers as you read our resources.
After I watch porn I type in “Jesus I’m sorry” in google. This time I typed “how to be free from porn” and found this site. I’m so glad I did. I used to be free- I just never had the desire for porn even when a thought would come into my mind. Even a feeling … I would just stay faithful to Jesus. I can’t remember how I did that for 3 months straight. But I changed so much- got closer with Jesus with no hinderances- got surprises- a spiritual gift of prophecy and painting/ heavenly visions. Now, I feel so close to God still yet I feel like when temptation comes in the form of a sensual feeling I immediately feel ashamed bc I know I will drop anything to masterbate and watch porn. When I do I can tell depression comes. I just feel so unmotivated and sad. I have paintings of Jesus on my wall and I always cry when I see them. I know Jesus can free me for good. I pray when I masterbate sometimes. Then it makes it so awkward I stop. But lately I won’t stop. I want a family, kids, and a husband so bad. I know God has that for me but its so hard to seek God first. Sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of the night and it feels like someone is touching my entire body. I get tingles and feel the desire stronger than ever before. I have even watched incestual stuff. I am scared what will happen if this sin continues in my life. I cannot believe I am saying all this. I just want to love Jesus and I need some serious help. I think the devil wants to destroy my life.
Alicia, your story really touched me. I just prayed for you in Jesus’ name!!
I believe it was no mistake you stumbled on this website. Your addiction, like so many others, is life controlling. You want a future filled with Gods blessings. But this issue is holding you back. In the very mist of your sin, Gods grace is sufficient for you. Something you said really concernes me however. During the middle of the night, you sense someone is touching you all over. I believe, all of us who struggle with this addiction have opened the door to demonic influence. We can’t shut that door all by ourselves. We need prayer, resight scripture, someone we can talk to and be honest with, and deliverance. I don’t want to sound weird, but that presents during the middle of the night sounds like a demon.
God wants your life to be fulfilling. I don’t mean sunshine and lollipops. There will always be ups and downs in life. However, He knows the plans He has for you, to give you a future and a hope. PLEASE reach out to a spirit-filled Christian and seek prayer and deliverance.
I feel like it im alot like u bc i can be good for a long time and when sometimes at night u get like weird tingling and i go look at porn. And did for first time in like a month it feels so good but u feel so ashamed after bc u know its bad. Then I fell asleep there in front of the computer and my sister found me adn i got caught . She didn’t let me go and she scolded me bad for like a hour. And she said it that why im tired so much bc it takes all my energy and she knows im doing it. She sad its just giving into temptation and she love s me so much but she feels ashamed of me right now because i making porn my god and it makes me jack off. And we prayed together and she said she knows i can be good and you just ask god for help.
alicia i’m feeling same….but jesus will definetly helps us.
Hey am in it.i stop for a while then am back.i dont know what to do i know its wrong but but pls feelings are so strong right know i have urges to watch
Francis,
Thank you for reaching out and asking for help. Are you using Covenant Eyes Screen Accountability? This can be a great step in finding freedom. I would also encourage you to reach out to someone you trust and ask them to pray for you and hold you accountable to what you are watching online (and offline!).
I often think of porn as a trap. It is so easy to fall into, but can seem impossible to overcome. Ask God to give you continued strength to seek freedom and cling to him as you find healing. You CAN be free!
Blessings,
Moriah
Plz pray foe me I am addition of porn . I never want to watch but I do , plz any one help me plz plz tell me jow I over come it
Please look around our blog and find the encouragement you need. I highly recommend you check out these two books and read them: The Porn Circuit and Your Brain on Porn. Both are free to download.
Hi, bro, thanks for your share…..
I have been in a temptation for long time. I have same feeling just like yours…….
I have been praying for myself and my faith since last year, and I almost give up. I believe in Jesus who can save my life from my sins and every temptation, but somehow I think that I have started losing my hope in Christ’s ability to save me from all my sins.
I feel so tired, and I talked to Jesus that I’m tired andand want to give up…….
suddenly God reminds me this song. It so touchs my heart.
Thank you so mucmuchMay God bless you.
Me too. I love this song.
I’m glad I found this website I’m in need of serious help please pray for me I have pornographic and masturbation addiction for 10 years on and off but it seems every time I fall it gets worst I was abuse when I was 10 close family member used to masterbate me and I so he really messed me up I have a serious concern for my health I’m scared to get testicular or prostate cancer I stop with prayer for days even weeks but I always fail I really need help this demons really have a hold on me I need lots of prayers from as many people I know it I’ll help I’m not giving up . I want to be set free please pray for me I have faith I’ll win this battle
Hey Erick,
Thanks for your questions. I’ll try to deal with them one at at time.
1. Your past abuse is a matter than should be dealt with by a professional counselor. Whenever someone experiences sexual trauma, it is wise to seek out help. I highly recommend you look at this database of counselors to find one in your area.
2. I’m not sure what your concerns about your physical health have to do with this. Are you saying your frequent masturbation will cause a problem, or are you saying you are concerned stopping masturbation will cause a problem?
3. As for quitting the pornography use, we have a lot of material here that can help you. I recommend starting with this book (it’s free to download, so feel free to get it right now).
Please let me know if you have any questions!
Thank you for you’re support and yes I think masturbating so much may cause a prostate problem. Thank you so much for you’re support for so many years I had this battle alone. Knowing there’s people out there praying for brings so much emotions thank you
If the health impact is a concern for you, then use it as a motivation to make great change in your life. I recommend this post about lust to start.
Jesus loves me…. I can’t find words,I kill him.How much agony have I subjected the Lord to,I don’t wanna fall away from my master anymore.I want to be his slave.Create in me a clean heart gracious master.I just wanna fall at your feet for all eternity and praise you
Don’t forget: Our master is one who pursues us despite our spiritual adultery. Your agony about your sin is fitting, but only if it is matched by a sincere faith in the gospel—and faith that understands just how real God’s mercy is.
I believe I am a follower of Jesus but every time I fail to porn I feel like I crucify him anew. I’ve prayed and prayed. This song is awesome prayer.
I was born and brought up in a Christian family.But i was under addiction for about 9 years and I’m hooked ,i know how to come out and my bondage was broken and after few years i started again and now for the past 10 months i have fallen nearly 25 times periodically and repented ,fasted and prayed but after few weeks in falling again
So sorry to hear about what you’re going through. Curious: what are you doing to limit your ability to access pornography?
I just wanna b save I also have a problem and I have been having it for 6years now I’m addicted to pornography and mustubation I have tried so many times to stop but I keep on fallong back in that very same pit.every time I stop it will be only for few months not morethen 6 then I’d go back from I don’t know how to stop or who to talk to I don’t trust any one around where I’m staying I trust only God but I feel like he has left me and he once nothing to do with me please pray for me as I’ll also pray and fight hather I’m not giving in.
Thanks for sharing, Tshego. I know what you mean. This addiction can feel like a death grip sometimes.
First, celebrate the fact that you go for many months not looking at porn. That’s a good thing. As the prophet Zechariah says, it is easy to “despise the day of small beginnings” (Zechariah 4:10), but remember God has bigger plans for us.
Second, I invite you to read more on what the apostle Paul says about freedom from sin. He has some great thoughts in Colossians and Romans I think you will find refreshing.
Please pray for me I have been struggling with this affliction/addiction for a number of years. I go through periods where God’s strength and Word keeps me strong. Then I give in without a struggle which can last for 2 weeks. I have been under the influence of porn for such a long time. Lord Jesus may your Scriptures form a gate to my mind and blinders to my eyes. Help me.
So sorry to hear this, DJ. I know that struggle all too well.
First, what have you done to put distance between yourself and your access to porn?
Second, while you’re thinking about that, read this book. It’s free to download.
Dear Luke, I googled Jesus I can’t quit porn. I’ve come across many sites such as yours, that offer ways of help; but time and time again, I fall. Fall hard. Satan has not only stolen from me the girl that God blessed me with; he’s stealing my life. I sincerely hope and pray that you pray for me and for my deliverance from this satanic ritual that I fall headlong into. All the others who have posted here, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. GOD IS WITH US THIS VERY MOMENT. I’m typing this out to you right after falling into sin yet again. I feel so very distant, despite the assurance that He is always there for me and loves me. In Jesus’ holy name, I command Satan to leave every single one of us this very instant.
So sorry to hear this, Jackson. Just curious: what have you done to distance yourself from the temptation to watch porn?
I just came across this site and article after watching porn on Twitter. I have been actually free for a long time but after a masterbation session, it led to watching pornography the next day. Im scared what doors porn opens but the addiction is so gripping. It’s been 1 year of being stuck in this addiction and 1 year is all I want. I feel like God stops loving me when I watch porn then I repent and start over and feel loved again…it sucks. I feel I am trapped in my porn because I am so deathly scared of confessing to anyone. As much as I understand no one is perfect…I believe people view my walk with the Lord as perfect so to speak of my sinful addiction would be my death. This has to end though. It hasnt be long but I can feel the toll it takes and how it kills you from the inside out. Prayer please, as I will pray for you guys that commented before me. Blessings.
I need to quit watching porn, I have spend 6 years of my life watching porn and I am getting frustrated and fed up of it and so I am asking you guys to please pray for me…. I really need help
You might want to check into a group for support: Pure Desire, xxxChurch, SAA. It’s good to have a safe place to process your issues and find support among others who are walking that same road. Blessings, Kay
Hi…i feel better atleast knowing that i am not alone in this struggle…mine is even worse..i masturbate a-least 3 times a day n whats worse is that it gat to a point that i set my alarm in the night to just like wake up n play with myself in the night! I knw its all wrong n i hate it bt i keep falling back into it…its my l dirty secret..i feel like God has nothng to do with me anymore……i desire to have Gods presence back into my life so badly bt i knw that bt as long as theres a sin which has dominated over yo life its very hard for that to happen…i lust after all goodlooking me and lately girls in those dirty films…i feel like at the final stage of perversion!!plese pray for me to get a final deliverance..i feel kike jam in a deep pit that i cnt get out of by myself bt am not giving up on JESUS!A
Who have you talked to about this? I mean face-to-face. Who is supporting you right now?
I am addicted to pornography and I have a mental disorder with no job so I’m idle all of the time please pray to Christ Jesus for me brothers and sisters
Some how some where when you hear that out in the world there people who share the same problem and people that are trying to fight it, u can gain this feeling that I AM NOT ALONE, breaking addictions is not easy task however i believe it can be dealt with permanently, i don’t have a clear solution to this problem as we in human nature we may never figure it out, but this is what am going to do, am going to control the horse rather than shooting it to die, when we watch porn what come to our mind, sex or masturbation, now the moment such a feeling comes to our mind we deiced to say yes or no, now when u say no …it will be a step to letting go, the power is within us what weakens us is the sweet feeling that comes last when we play sex or finish masturbating. am changing my mind set and am setting my body the temple of God free from masturbation, i know it is not easy but i serve a big God 4th may 2016 until on this wont happen, it is a promise i have made to my self I pray that God strengthens me through this battle and also pray for my dia sisters and brothers who are going through the same trial, join me in the struggle… this is how we going to do it, for every day we don’t masturbate or watch porn lets write this statement in our dairies,,PORNOGRAPHY AND MASTURBATION I RENDER U POWERLESS…I WIN AND I DESTROY U IN THE NAME OF THE MIGHTY GOD AMEN…let do this now and for ever until when u cant write anywhere in your diary …. THANK U FOR THIS SITE …am healed and my wedging war right now…
please pray with me and how can i get out of this porn mess. i try to avoid watching porn and this can only last for months then i find myself in it again. i need help both with prayer and how i can stop
Hi Mercy, this blog post lays out some very straight-forward steps to move towards freedom: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2012/04/23/how-to-quit-porn-6-essential-steps/ Which of these steps can you implement right away?
Brothers and sisters I have a testimony to make I just typed a long long paragraph and my internet lost connection. Who do you all think stopped the message from being sent?! We know! But I will re type it anyways! Brother and sisters I have struggled with porn addiction for over 10 years and it has increasingly gotten filthier. I now am into transgender porn something that is wrong and sick. I have a girlfriend whom I love and we have been together for two years. She has no idea about this or that 3 or 4 transgender people I had sexual encounters with in my past. When I think about who I’ve become I cry because I know that this is not who I am. I have become someone else, the person whom the devil wants me to be. I have fallen and gotten back up many times. I was born again about 5 years ago when I was in s serious car accident that I should have died in. My life changed for the better, but it also became cursed by this demon that has controlled my life. Brothers and sisters after reading all of your testimonies I know that this is possible to overcome this great sin. I have overcome it in the past as I’m sure many of you have. I am at a crossroads in my life at 25 years old and I believe that if I do not get this filth out of my life I will be stuck in it for life. I want to get rid of it so bad I cry and stay up at not and beg the lord Jesus to forgive. I understand meaning of the cross and that our sins are forgiven but he deserves so much more than what I’ve given him. I pray that all of us get out of this sin and one day are able to be free of sin and all anxiety and worry. I love you all brothers and sisters and thank each of you everyone has helped me tonight and hopefully I can help someone else. Like the word says, wherever there are two or more in my name I am there. I’m not sure about you all but I feel his presence and the holy spirits presence it’s amazing. I can feel the love and joy. What’s amazing like I said before the devil basically erased my last post because when I tried to post my server “magically all of the sudden lost connection” and actually just tried to again! He doesn’t want us to connect but we will, I just re-wrote my old post plus more, why?! Because the spirit pushed me to!! This is why I say my brothers and sisters nothing and I mean nothing can separate us from the love of our lord Jesus Christ! Nothing is impossible, and we can overcome this and all the obstacles in our lives that are separating us from Him! I pray that all of you are well and find peace and joy! I love you all and God bless everyone. May the peace and love of the lord Jesus Christ be with you always! AMEN
I need help too. Porn, sex, greed, drugs, lust have been a battle for me for 30 years. I found a good church 6 years ago but I know I need to confess my sin. I haven’t done drugs since I joined the church but I still struggle with anger, greed, and lust. I live alone and I don’t feel accountable. I have a couple men at church, one a pastor, who I want to get completely honest with but Satan always stops me with “what will they think if you let them know who you you really are?”
James 5-16 telld us : Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.
Please pray that I would confess my sin to another brother and stop wasting my life because I wasted so much of it already. Thank you. I will pray for others here tonight.
Nick, you’re absolutely correct. Scripture compels us to confess and live as children of light. My hope is that these men will respect you more because of your authenticity. I also confessed to my pastor one time after being very afraid to do so, and it was a very grace-filled experience. Liberating! “Be strong and courageous!”
Peace, Chris
Hi im 17 and i love God and i serve him but i also have a bad porn addiction like its hard to stop i pray for it but i keep letting him down i know i can be forgiven but i keep turning back to it i dont want to but it always come back i need prayers my name is nathan and i just need help to be set free from porn and masturbation
Hi Nathan – good for you to take a step of courage and admit you need help. You’re probably finding that just “trying harder” doesn’t work for long. It’s not about changing your actions (behaviors), but instead, being transformed on the inside (beliefs). Do you have a trusted mentor/adult you can talk to about this? Someone who can remind you of your identity in Christ – beloved, saved, holy – because of the cross. This blog post talks about 3 steps you can take – please read and let me know if you can take action on these: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/
Fight on! You are in a battle. Sin does not give up ground easily when it comes to our sexual desires. But, one day at a time, with Christ and community (that trusted friend/mentor/adult) “all things are possible with God.” Do you believe that? What you believe really matters.
God is for you, Nathan!
Chris
Need help.. porn addiction came back in my life with vengeance. My once blessed life walking in His glory is crumbling beneath my feet. Jesus I need you take the wheel, only you can mend what the enemy is tearing apart.. I know you have purpose for my like and i decree that my journey with sin ends by blood of Jesus.
Hi Lee, are you in an accountable relationship? God’s mercy is fresh every morning – you can count on that.
This is a terrific song. I am so messed up with my porn addiction. My kids recently moved out of stayed. I dont wanr to be a sex drunk. I love the lord but my actions show i live in fear. I will look at the links posted above. I feel like i have burnrt out all my accountability mentors. I need a miracle. I love the lord. Thank you for your ministry.
In christ. Patrick
Hello I am 17 and have been recently addicted to pornography when I used it get out of exam tensions and many things were not going in right way. I really want to stop but could not, I really love Jesus and don’t want to sin against him, this demon has hold me very strongly. Please pray for me follower of Jesus, help me to achieve my eternal life dear brother and sisters in christ. Amen
Hello, I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling (and for the delay in responding). What have you tried in order to stop? Read this blog post for some guidance: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/
I just feel like I should encourage someone on this issue having been a victim before. one thing is that there’s a spiritual force or let’s just say demons attached to one masturbating. a person under their influence can either be possessed, oppressed, obsessed and so on. the only way out at least that has worked for me is Jesus. this is not a cliche… u see, it was Jesus who made a public defeat of the devil and his kingdom Colossians 2:15. he did this not because the devil was a threat to him, but because we would need the victory to be able to keep the devil at bay. so Jesus conquered and gives the victory to us. how? by we believing and calling on him for help. Jesus has paid the bill for your redemption from masturbation. so the first step I know is putting your believe in Christ Jesus. then to my practical steps, I felt bad falling in masturbation, so I went to God and just pleaded for His mercy and help. then I got a word in my spirit that I should go and walk in newness of life. that’s what is keeping me, the word from God. it’s only when you’re not in Christ you can be possessed, if you’re in Christ you can be oppressed to go into masturbation, but you gotta go to the Lord in faith and stand your ground. if I’d summarize my steps to freedom cos I’ve got a lot to say, I’d say this; receiving God’s forgiveness having genuinely asked, believe in His forgiving power, secondly, study the Bible so you can walk in newness of life, and finally pray for His mercy, grace and help. the moment you desire to quit masturbation, you’re become very very close to victory. the devil is just a trickster and he knows it. the power in Christ is well able to get you out, it doesn’t matter how long you might have been in it
Hello Kimlun – Mr. Luke no longer works for Covenant Eyes, but I bet you might benefit from this post that he wrote – I’ve found it to be incredibly helpful during my own journey: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/
Peace, Chris
Covenant Eyes
God please help me. i am also into this horrible addiction. i dont know what to pray again. my name is timi. please pray for me. God bless you
Thanks for your advice Zeke. May God bless you. You just sent relief to my soul.
Hello, Timi, I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this right now. The temptation is real, but God is stronger! Do you believe this? Prayer + grace-driven effort = a powerful weapon against pornography. Here are some steps you can take: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/ Here’s another one: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2016/06/30/stop-looking-at-porn-you-sicko-part-1/
Timi, God is for you! I have prayed for you now.
Chris
Covenant Eyes
hello , im gbolahan I have regret to say I’m a porn addict and have tried to stop it on several occasions going to 7yrs now and im a christian and believe God can help me but I wonder why he hasnt stopped this act from me and most times I do dis I run back to him for forgiveness but I really do want to stop this act. what can I do please help me???
Hello, I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this right now. The temptation is real, but God is stronger! Do you believe this? Prayer + grace-driven effort = a powerful weapon against pornography. Here are some steps you can take: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/ Here’s another one: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2016/06/30/stop-looking-at-porn-you-sicko-part-1/
God is for you! I have prayed for you now.
Chris
Covenant Eyes
thanks very much. God bless you
I’m 56 yrs old,male and extremely screwed up. I’ve been seriously addicted to meth and porn for 40 yrs. I’m tired, sick and don’t know what to do. Pray for me please , my 7name is Robert
Hello, Robert – that’s a long, difficult battle, sir. You cannot break free on your own. I bet you’ve tried a thousand times. Can you get yourself to professional help? http://www.aacc.net/resources/find-a-counselor/ What about a faith-based support group? God is for you – He can take any amount of brokenness and redeem it for good. My hope is that you’re able to experience this.
Peace, Chris
Please pray for me
Am getting addicted to porn and I can’t save myself
Hi, Julius – you are absolutely right that you cannot save yourself. But, you can take steps (you’re the only one who can take these) that can lead toward being saved from addiction. Read this http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/05/13/3-biblical-strategies-for-fighting-lust/
Please I am tired of falling into porn after giving my life to Christ a million times.Should I do away with my device?I do not want to end up in hell.
Hey Dan. Your life is in Christ. You will not end up in hell. You are, NOW, held safe in Love, always and forever. (Eph 2:13) Nothing separates you from the Love of God (Romans 8). It is finished, the work is done. Trust it. The more you trust the Love that never lets you go, the less you’ll need porn to fill the empty spaces–Love will fill the empty spaces instead. If your device keeps you from experiencing Love, then sure, get rid of it. But make sure that you fill that space with Love–otherwise you’ll just find some other substitute to put in that place. If all this sounds completely nuts to you, you might want to find a spiritual director to help along the journey. Google and see who’s available in your area. Peace to you, friend. Kay
Thanks a lot.God bless you.Please do not forget to pray for me .
You got it, Dan. Done!
Chris