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My Biggest Addiction Isn’t Porn

Last Updated: April 2, 2024

For as long as I can remember I have had an issue with pride.

I can remember back to the 4th grade when I was given a solo in the school Christmas program. I was all jazzed about getting to sing my heart out with my very own microphone. But then the week of the program, my music teacher decided she wanted another girl to sing with me.

A duet.

Even on the night of the program I remember pushing myself ever closer (and pushing her further away) to the microphone so that my voice would carry over hers. After all, I had been given the solo. It wasn’t right that I had put “so much work” into my solo to only have it taken from me just days before I was set to perform.

Every once in a while that ugly pride monster comes out again. But there is nothing more dangerous that when he shows up in midst of my sobriety walk.

November 19 will mark my 7th year of long-term sobriety from pornography and sexual addiction. It is an awesome milestone to reach. But I will be honest with you that my sobriety has not always been stable. Read the rest on Crystal Renaud’s blog…

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