My wife runs a ministry at our church called Hearts Restored. It ministers to women who have suffered sexual betrayal. In almost every case the husband struggles with or is addicted to porn.
The reaction of their wives is multifaceted. They are angry. They feel betrayed. They feel the need to take control. There is confusion and the destruction of trust, and it has been extremely traumatic. Some suffer silently and hope their marriage does not end. The reactions of many wives are the same as those suffering from PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder – see book recommendation below).
There are all kinds of ways wives can respond. Some are helpful and some can do more harm than good. My wife and I have worked on this together because her advice in this area comes from one who has walked it out. I think you will value what she has to say.
Here are some basic principles we have learned.
First – some things you should NOT do:
1. It is not your job to stop him from looking at porn.
If he is going to recover he must own his own recovery. Resist the reaction of creating for him a list of what he needs to do or stop doing. This creates a false idea of what recovery is. He is the one who has to make the list and the two of you should discuss it.
2. Do not become his porn police.
His recovery demands accountability. However, he needs accountability to people other than you.
Early on Mona and I had a clear understanding of my boundaries. If I crossed certain boundaries I needed to be truthful and tell her. However, if I told her every time I struggled or was feeling tempted it would have been damaging to her. I had a counselor, a group of men I met with weekly, and two other men who were available to me on a daily basis. If Mona had been in this role then every time I struggled or failed she would have been re-traumatized.
3. It’s not your job to provide sex as a deterrent to porn and masturbation.
I have had men tell their wives that if they would have sex with them more often then they would not be tempted as much to look at porn and masturbate. This sounds reasonable, but it does not work and is actually a trap.
More sex is not the solution for a sex addict. Those who demand this are simply substituting their wives for their porn, which will never help them heal. Also, your sexual relationship has already had problems. Having more of the same, with both of you even more wounded, will compound the issues. You are feeling wounded and angry and the last thing you want to do is have sex with him.
Second – some things you SHOULD do:
1. Help him set good boundaries.
Part of that will be limiting access to the computer. He needs software that blocks pornography and sends a report of all the websites he visits to his accountability partners. He should not be the administrator or know the password. Cell phone, iPods and tablets need to be limited and protected as well. Covenant Eyes provides these features.
2. Encourage him to seek counseling and join a recovery ministry.
I am not talking with meeting with his pastor once a week for coffee. He needs to meet with a professional Christian counselor who has a background in working with sexual addiction.
Also, find recovery ministries and sexual addiction recovery groups in your area. Twelve Step programs like Sex Addicts, Sex Addicts Anonymous, and Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous should be listed online. Make it a priority to have him attend meetings weekly. A timeframe of a year would be a good start. (No, I am not kidding.)
3. Begin working on the two of you experiencing true intimacy.
Having sex on a regular basis is not what I am talking about. Developing emotional and spiritual intimacy is what needs to happen. Just having more sex is not the answer and can actually make his problem worse. He craves to be loved and accepted. There are wounds that he has been medicating with sex and it only deepens the wound and increases guilt and shame – which reinforces the cycle.
Sexual intimacy is a powerful bond and intended by God to be a healthy part of your marriage. If it has become something to get done so porn is not as tempting it has lost its true value. Sexual intimacy needs to flow from there being emotional and spiritual intimacy together. It should be something that is a celebration of the oneness you are experiencing as a couple because you are spending quality time together being open and honest with each other.
Mona and I are coming up on the seventh year of our recovery. It has been hard work every step of the way. We realize that the things we have shared are difficult. However, there are no easy answers. Both of you are broken and both of you will need to work on your own issues before you will be able to experience the marriage God has for you.
Mona and I would recommend these books for both of you:
- Your Sexually Addicted Spouse: How Partners Can Cope and Heal by Barbara Steffens and Marsha Means (Aug 25, 2009)
- Sacred Sex: A Spiritual Celebration of Oneness in Marriage by Tim Alan Gardner and Scott M. Stanley (May 21, 2002)
Kath & John-I have been dealing with my husband and his problem for the last year and a half. We have been married almost 28 years. He has been into pron for about 37 years. He has grown up in a Christian home and we have gone to church while we have been married. My husband does not like to say it is an addiction and that it is not a problem. He also does not like to use the words sin and Satan. He likes the word ‘worldly’. I get so fed up this word game. He has been going to a chaplian for over a year and started seeing a counsellor that deals with men about 6 months ago.
Last week he decided we needed to negotiate things like computer use, money, extra with a third party. Sounds good but we have done these things before and it becomes a game of how he can be more sneeky. I feel an additude change is needed towards me before we can negotiate. I have spent the last year + trying to get my life right with the Lord asking Him to forgive me for I have done wrong.(I know when you are in a hurtful relationship you hurt other.) I know I can only control what I do and I have to answer to God for what I do, not for what my husband does.
I would like to make comment on Andy remarks. My husband uses comment like I perfer tall skinny women, when I am only 5 foot 2 and I guess your face is ok. I can not compete with tall skinny women that are 30 years younger then me and not real. I could not even compete 30 years ago when I was 17 and dating him.
I have been seeing a christain consellor since before I knew what the problem was. John I want to know if it is common for men to like to play this word games with sin & Satan extra.
Ruth,
Thank you for your response and your questions. I am sure there is a significant degree of frustration that has built up over the years and this is a problem that is not easily solved.
It sounds to me like your husband has not come to the point where he is broken over his sin and condition. Not wanting to admit that there is a “problem” or an “addiction” would indicate that. If it has been part of his life for 37 years then he is clearly in denial or does not want to leave this behavior that has been a very effective way of dealing with the pain and brokenness in his life.
I agree that before there can be successful negotiations on things like computer use and and money there needs to be a recommitment to his marriage, to you and to living in purity before God.
Kathy – I appreciate your response on so many different levels. Some of the thoughts are difficult to follow – like Peter said about Paul’s writings. However, what I can understand is that you are hurting and in a painful place. It is also clear that you have a good knowledge of the Word so here are some of my thoughts.
If your husband is indeed involved in leading a para church ministry involving recovery from addiction and yet is still acting out in sexual sin then the last thing I would tell you to do it to keep silent. There are appropriate steps that need to be taken to inform those under whom he is serving about what is really going on. As a leader of a sexual addiction recovery ministry at my church (www.180men.org) if I were to break my boundaries and fail to maintain purity I would expect there to be serious repercussions both at home and in the church. For me that means – no adultery, no porn, no masturbation and the daily walk of doing the things I need to do so that I am dealing with the daily temptations that every man faces. I am daily accountable to one of my leaders, weekly accountable to the 180 Leaders and regularly accountable to sharing with my wife how my sobriety has been.
The issue as to who holds the passwords can be settled between each couple. Some guys it is their wives. Others have their accountability partners keep them. The important thing is that the struggling addict is not the holder of the passwords. Along this line though my wife is not my “porn police” she is my wife and I need to be open and honest with her at all times. She has the right to ask me any question and I have the responsibility to answer honestly. That is the foundation for rebuilding trust and having real intimacy.
Lastly, I think you were trying to make a case, based on John 8:38 “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” that any true believer cannot be addicted to any sinful behavior. Their addiction shows that they have not been set free so they must not really know Jesus. Jesus has set me free from the penalty of my sin. He paid the price once for all and through faith in Him we are set free from sin’s penalty. In heaven we will be set free from the presence of sin. Until then sin is present in the world, the flesh and the Devil. I cannot escape it’s presence but I can experience the power of God to walk in the Spirit and not fulfill the desires of the flesh.
Even Paul cried out “Wretched man that I am who will free me from this body of death?” He struggled to stop coveting and the more he tried the more he failed. Most scholars agree that Paul is describing himself in Romans 7 – as a believer – who is trying to stop sinning in his own power. Notice there is no mention of the Spirit in the last part of Romans 7.
Addiction to any sin is not conclusive evidence that someone does not know Jesus and is not a Christian. It could be evidence that they are not a believer but I would have to know more about them and their struggle. For 8 years I struggled with a sexual addiction while being a pastor in a conservative evangelical church.
I know all this theology does not help the pain you are in. If your husband is open to help I would be glad to communicate with him. My contact information is on our ministry website … http://www.180men.org.
I read the article a little while ago, thought about it and just read it again. You have some new and interesting comments, some appreciable and some troubling. While I appreciate your spirit of sensitivity to both, the addicted and the betrayed, I’m also troubled by some of the vocabulary which I have found so prevailing among the church. I wonder if we really think about what we say?
I very much agree with your first three main points: 1. It’s not her job, he must own his own recovery. If the change is never inward (for the person involved -whichever spouse) all the outward control, however skillfully enacted, will be only that. 2. Don’t become “porn police”. I agree. All the “policing” in the world is never enough, feeds resentment, and can always be gotten around. Porn is not the problem, but one possible manifestation of a bigger problem, sexual immorality. Sexual immorality is not a quantity issue but a quality issue; if one is unfaithful, the sidewalk or the restaurant or church is sufficient environment. 3. More sex; not the solution. I agree. I also appreciate the comments on 1Cor.7 by both Mark and Luke. Paul gives, here and elsewhere, a healthy description of the Christian standard for sexual intimacy. I read once that the, “Christian ethic of faithfulness to one’s spouse provides the security and safety that in turn provides for intimacy unparalleled elsewhere. If that is compromised, trust is broken and one partner feels unsafe and unprotected, then fear and self-protection become dominant and true intimacy impossible.” Saying one can have intimacy without fidelity is like saying Don Juan truly loved women.
So in the main I agree but now for what troubles me. In the movement from what she should not do to what she should you seem to contradict yourself. Help him set the boundaries sounds like a good plan but seems to put her back in control; and what if those boundaries are not agreeable to both and who controls the crossing line? Computer accountability with him not holding the passwords also sounds like a good plan but if she is not to be the “police” who does hold them? Outside help, counseling and accountability also sound great! “Go it alone” is definitely a trap but finding people who won’t just add insult to injury even among the “professionals” becomes the challenge. New fights about what the person said begin to dwarf the original issue. And, I’m very troubled by the idea that our pastors are so unprepared and ill equipped that meeting once a week with the pastor for this very spiritual as well as physical issue, can’t be recommended or trusted. Restoring emotional, physical and spiritual intimacy also sound not only good but necessary if a marriage is to be real and not just the pretense of a marriage, but again working for intimacy without fidelity or trust, unity without commitment, seems like holding out that carrot that can never be reached. I’ve also been very troubled by the language we use that creates inevitable failure. When or “every time” (it’s Hugh Heffner that teaches that true fidelity is impossible, not scripture – Jude 24 among many) I struggle or fail (fail is a nice generic word – do we mean commit adultery with our eyes or hearts as Jesus said? Mth 6:28) I don’t tell my wife because it only re-wounds or re-traumatizes her (sounds generous but does it really not wound her to know in general that you are not faithful even if she doesn’t know specifically when or with whom? And, rather than counseling not to be immoral or deceitful, who originally was it that came up with the idea that adding deceit to immorality would help any one?1Pet.3:8-4:11) Paul says that these things result in death, so does Proverbs. I also read that the sexually immoral have no inheritance in the kingdom of God, are under judgement of God, one on whom the wrath of God is coming in Colossians, and in Rev. will be in the outer darkness with the sorcerers, etc. and not in the New City. Two of the most troubling things that I have come across is that, one, although these verses would seem to describe a person who is not saved, actually saying that a sexually immoral person does not need to be condemned, they need to be saved is very condemnable; and, two, that even though Jesus is the one who unites love of him with obedience to him, he “seems” able to do little to empower it. Failure on some level is inevitable, expectation of fidelity is jealous and unforgiving and not even Jesus can be expected to help us out with this, or so it seems.
I do hope in my language you can tell that this is not an academic issue but a personal one. I “found out” six years ago, we’ve been married thirty years last week and my husband is the leader in a local parachurch ministry. We’ve fought about what words like repentance, forgiveness, humility and grace really mean. Ironically the ministry is an addiction recovery ministry. Today we are worse off than at the beginning and on the verge of collapse. I began by saying that I thought what Jesus means by, “If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed”; is that if it is the Son who really set you free then you will be really free. Because I believe and continue to maintain that a person who is described as” trapped, captive to Satan and sin, blind and in darkness” is not saved; that fidelity is faithfulness with zero other sexual intimacy partners on whatever level and that fidelity without compromise is the only acceptable standard (withstanding all the “sinless perfectionist” accusations); and because I won’t agree that a godly response for a christian wife of a man in ministry, now that I know about it, would be to “go silent” and just pray for him (accomplice?) I’m well informed that I am the one wrecking my marriage. Although my husband won’t fight the permissive, inevitable failure responses and tell them that he is “done” with sexual immorality, etc., and that as Peter says, “we have spent ‘enough’ time in the past doing what the Pagans do” he will tell me he is done with me (of course unless I agree to the “go silent” about it). The sad thing for me is that I wonder if there is ever going to be anyone brave enough to love the sexually immoral enough to tell them that they are not saved but that there really is a Jesus who really is powerful enough to set them free not only from the penalty of sin but also the sin itself. If my husband and the others (esp. the leaders of the church) can’t even stand up to Satan and fight this and win what will we do if we ever face real persecution in life or death situations? What would we have done in Rome when all it took to deny our faith in Christ was a pinch of incense?
There are a lot of rigid philosophies that seem to have grown up around Christian porn recovery. I wonder sometimes where the biblical roots are? What does God say about sex? I especially would like to hear from the moderators how I Cor 7:2-5 fits into this discussion
“But since there is so much immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband.The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife’s body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband’s body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife. Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.”
To me it seems to say that marriage sex is one aspect of Gods provision against temptation.
If a spouse deprives thier mate God seems to be saying they are going to experience temptation. Temptation to do what? Cheat, look at porn, or fantasize in ones own mind without the aid of outside visual material. I know that Gods grace at work inside us is another aspect of self control, but one cannot ignore that God seems to be saying that a person who is married should not have to feel deprived. What then is the standard of deprivation. Who decides how much sex is enough to feel satisfied?
Supression is not the answer to porn addiction. Just because a person cant watch porn does not mean they cannot visualize it. I was fantasizing long before the internet came around and I had no access to printed porn or videos.
Sexual urges can run amok when a person has been given bad messages about sex. Sex is bad and dirty is one. The other is sex is free and easy. Also supression of sexual desire is like a person on a diet trying to starve themselves. You have to have food to lose weight. You have to have sex to stay healthy.
I fear that there is a backlash of asceticism among the Christian porn recovery movement. To tell women they have no responsibility to help thier husbands deal with thier sexual problems by way of sexual provision is misleading. There are men who fell into porn because they were deprived. I didnt say all. I said some. If you think that is not possible then reread the passage above.
To have a discussion about porn absent a thourough declaration of what a sexually healthy and vigorous marriage is in Gods eyes is to leave us without all of Gods provision for the struggle.
1 Corintians 7:2-5 does fit nicely into this discussion. You are absolutely correct that marriage sex is one aspect of Gods provision against temptation. When a wife or husband deprives o their spouse they are sinning against them. Of course, the offended spouse should never sin in return by lusting after others.
Suppression is not the answer, correct. The Bible tells us we only overcome sinful urges when they are trumped by holy longings (Galatians 5).
You are also right that people can have poor ideas of sex, believing the lies that sex is wicked or that sex is free and easy. I find nothing really objectionable about what you’re saying here. This is really part of the message of this whole blog.
I have two suggestions:
1. Stop eating at McDonalds, loose some weight, and have some self respect
2. Have sex with him.
He’s looking at other naked women because he doesn’t want to look at you, or because he doesn’t get a chance to look at you.
Unreal.
@Andy – It’s amazing that you would assume women in this position are all insecure, frigid wives who have let themselves go physically. If the testimonies of comments on this blog and the stories we’ve heard time and time again from women are any indication, the opposite is often true. Often the man enters the marriage already addicted to porn. Often wives are confused by his attraction to porn, especially when they are so eager to please their husbands. The fact is, no woman can compete for the attention of a man addicted to fantasy. If he can get is jollies any time he wants and custom-tailor his fantasy experience to include whoever he wants, however many women he wants, in whatever positions he wants, no real-life, flesh-and-blood woman can compete with this kind of digital harem.
To be sure, some women are sexually inattentive and lack self-respect. Yes, some women are guilty of being downright terrible to their husbands. But a woman who does this is responsible for her shortcomings, not his. No woman, no matter how odious, makes her man commit visual adultery. If a wife sins against her husband in some way, let her account for it. But let her account for her sins alone. He is still responsible for his unfaithfulness.
Good morning,
I apologize in advance if this is long. I have been suffering with my porn addiction since I was a child. Some things happened to me and that door opened. It has been a secret shame that I have carried with me all of my life and no one, other than my Jesus knows about it. I was saved and filled with the Holy Spirit in 2004. For more than three years it was not even a thought anymore. I was single and it seemed effortless. Then one day out of the blue BAM the urge hit and I submitted to it. I was devastated because I had been delivered, so I thought from it for years. It hit and lasted for about a week, to which I prayed and fasted and continued to acknowledge the Lord and then it went away. It happens like that and I am noticing the pattern and I do thank the Lord for revealing to me the pattern so I know how to combat it, but my issue now is I was married two years ago. And I was doing good. One day I went online to search youtube and when I typed in you..a pornagraphic website popped up in the history and I knew that it was not me. I instantly knew it was my husband because we are the only two in our apartment.
I was devastated because it made me feel low, cheated on and not desired by my husband. I thought maybe it was a mistake but when I went into the history and viewed for the past week, it was full of all kinds of websites. I never confronted him and he still doesn’t know that I know because I guess I just never wanted to admit to him that I too am addicted and I felt like a hypocrite. Just this week I have submitted to it twice and this morning I finally said I’m sick of this and need help and began googling, which led me here. I’m currently 5 months pregnant and am terrified that this same spirit will be passed to my unborn baby and that will destroy me because I know what goes on with this addiction. I NEED HELP and I don’t know what to do or how to start that conversation with my husband. I just feel so lost and unsaved.
I want to break this cycle. I want this to end with me and my husband and go no further down our lineage. I don’t really even know what else to say. I do have my best friend to which I can be accountable and know she will keep it to herself because we are each others confidants, and although she has admitted some shameful and sinful things to me, I just can’t seem to bring myself to tell her so that I can have that accountability.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I am dealing with enough being pregnant, working full time, going to school full time, and feeling like I am putting on a happy face at church when sometimes I just want to curl into a ball in a corner somewhere.
Be blessed,
Miesha
Miesha, thank you so much for stopping by and sharing your story.
First, let me say that I am so sorry you are dealing with this mixture of issues. We regularly speak to wives who feel cheated on by their porn-viewing husbands. And we also occasionally talk to women who struggle themselves. But you are dealing with both of these at the same time, and I can’t imaging how hard that is for you.
Second, understand that many people struggle with pornography and many do not tell their spouses how bad they are struggling. It is a secret shame they carry within them. Your feelings of shame are very natural because you are wondering how others might view you if they knew. Perhaps your husband is dealing with the same shame. In a way, the fact that you can identify with his temptations could make confronting him and confessing to him a very positive experience for both of you. Many wives feel hurt by their husband’s use of porn, but not many can identify with the strength of the temptation. You can.
Third, make sure you have your facts straight. If there is any doubt that your husband is guilty, don’t come to him “guns blazing.” If you aren’t positive he is guilty of looking at porn, then don’t approach him as if you are positive.
Fourth, don’t assume his use of porn is parallel to yours in every way. He might be babbling in porn. He might be hit with periodic temptations. He might have a full-blown addiction. You don’t know at this point. When you do talk to him, don’t project your own experience on to him as if his problem looks just like yours.
If you want to cut the power of this sin, the key is to confess it to others. Start, perhaps, with your accountability partner. Next time you see her in a private setting (or if you are talking over the phone), start the conversation with something like this. “I really appreciate our relationship because I feel you have been able to come to me with your secrets. I want to be able to come to you with mine, but I’m very afraid. I’m afraid because I have a secret and I feel so shameful about it, I have never been able to tell anyone. I want to tell you right now if you are willing.” This will pre-frame the whole discussion for her.
I do believe you should talk to your husband at some point soon. He needs to know. Just as you feel wronged by his use of porn, your use of porn has wronged him. The good news is that where sin has increased, grace overflows! Yes, he might be hurt when you confess to him. Yes, you might feel hurt when he confesses to you. But you have to get this sin out into the open so you can help one another deal with it.
Perhaps you can start a conversation with your husband this way: “I have something to say to you that is very important, but I’m terrified about what you’ll think. First, I need to ask you a straightforward question. Do you ever get tempted to look at pornography on the Internet?” See what he says about that, then say something like this: “I have a confession to make to you. I have struggled with looking at porn since I was young. It is something I thought I had overcome, but recently it has been particularly difficult to say no to. I need to tell you this because by watching pornography I have wronged you. I am so sorry. I need your forgiveness, and I understand if you don’t even feel like you can forgive me right now. The point is I don’t want this to be a secret anymore for me. I want to break free from this habit and I’m willing to do whatever you want to regain your trust.”
Confession is the beginning of the journey. After this, there are many helpful resources that can help both you and him to fight this temptation at the root.
I recommend you take a look at some of our free resources:
1. Women and Porn Addiction: A Christian Response (webinar for women)
2. Hope After Porn (e-book for wives)
3. Hooked: A Christian Response to Porn Addiction (webinar for men and women who struggle)
4. Your Brain on Porn (e-book for men and women who feel addicted)
Thank you for asking. When he first told me he quit viewing porn, I felt hopeful, it took a couple of months but I could see that he was serious. Now, six months out from his decision, things seems worse than ever. He relates his lack of physical intimacy to work and stress. Without question just the stuff everyone is dealing with, bills and the economy, that is certainly an issue. However, I think we both are aware that he is dealing with the physical effects of years of viewing. He doesn’t acknowledge it as a problem. He tells me that the fact that he’s given up viewing should be enough for me. I can only push the conversation so far before he becomes angry and shuts me out. This just stirs up a lot of fear and paranoid thinking in me. I finally sat down with a friend from church this past week and told her what was going on and that did help some. I’m thinking the only option to keep my own mental health intact is to move forward with some counseling on my own. Which is very difficult, because I really would prefer that it were both of us moving in the same direction. Quite honestly I feel as cheated now as I have felt when he was viewing porn.
@Lynn – Thanks for your raw honesty about this stuff. You said, “He tells me that the fact that he’s given up viewing should be enough for me.” This is very “normal” for people who’ve experienced addiction. It’s easy to become myopic: the person is only focused on ridding themselves of the bad behavior. They aren’t even able to think about what life looks like on the other side of the addiction (other than NOT looking at porn anymore).
My first recommendation would be for you to suggestion him taking some time away from work (an extended weekend, holiday, vacation, etc.) in order to spend some quality time together. If stress is his reason (or excuse) for lack of intimacy, then see about removing that from the picture for a time and see if it helps him open up.
Second, when you talk about the lack of intimacy, try to focus him on the end goal. Ask him to come up with a proactive solution. In other words, the conversation could go something like this: “I want to be close to you, and I know you don’t feel up to it. But whatever the reason is, I want to find a way to make it work. I want to know if you feel the same way I do: Do you want to make love more? And if so, what do you think we should do to make that happen?” If he asks you why you want to know, ask him, “I think most guys would love it if their wife told them: I want to have more sex. Don’t you this so? Which would you rather have: a life where you feel too stressed to enjoy sex, or a life where you felt less stress and had more sex?” These sort of questions might help him see past his excuses.
You are right for seeking out counseling and I do hope he decides he wants to join you.
Mona and I would also encourage you to seek counseling and support for yourself. You cannot control him and make him find support but that does not mean you do not need it and deserve it. If it is affordable for you I would recommend finding a woman counselor in your area who has experience in dealing with sexual betrayal.
I would not waist any more time> He is a pig and will always be a pig. You can do better without him and maybe withourt any man.. That stuf f just belittles us and is an unending battle ! Even if he claims he stopped, he is prob lying!! Been there, done it hope u have better luck than me
My husband has quit viewing porn but only by shutting down all facets of intimacy in our marriage. He won’t seek out counseling or an accountability partner. He says there isn’t anyone available to help him.I know he’s hurting, and me “policing him” clearly is not the answer. All I’ve managed to do in that respect is isolate myself from everyone. I truly do not know how to deal with this anymore. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
@Lynn – Thanks for stopping by to share some of your story with us. It is hard to help someone who refuses to find help. What sort of conversation have you had with him regarding the lack of intimacy in your marriage? Is this something he acknowledges as a problem?
It is no secret that addiction to pornography is rampant and a serious problem. I’ve struggled with it for decades and was first exposed to it as a child. I have done a twelve step course for sexual addiction in the past, read books and tried good old will power. I can truly say that until I became consistent in my morning devotion time (I had a partner over the phone) and asking God to baptize me each morning in the Holy Spirit I had received little relief. Jesus has given me the victory in this area just as he did 5 years ago over drugs and alcohol. One of the fruits of the spirit is self control. Read Luke 11: 9-13, and DAILY ask for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I wasn’t specifically asking for victory over porn or anything, the fruit of the spirit gave me the self control which almost effortlessly changed me. Thank-you Jesus! P.S. The devotional we did can be found at http://www.40daysdevotional.com
Thanks for sharing your experience, inviting the Holy Spirit each morning sounds like one of the first steps in this process of recovery, but it can be forgotten in the daily rush that we live in. I need Gods help.
“2. Do not become his porn police.
His recovery demands accountability. However, he needs accountability people other than you.
Early on Mona and I had a clear understanding of my boundaries. If I crossed certain boundaries I needed to be truthful and tell her. However, if I told her every time I struggled or was feeling tempted it would have been damaging to her. I had a counselor, a group of men I met with weekly, and two other men who were available to me on a daily basis. If Mona had been in this role then every time I struggled or failed she would have been re-traumatized.”
This is not true at all, if my husband makes mistakes or fails he tells me right away. There is no room lies in our marriage. Not all women are emotional wrecks that can not hold their husbands accountable. When we said our vows, I said “for better or worse” that means doing my part if we are going through the “worse” parts. I have been “clean” for 3 years and he has been for 17 months.
You bring up a great point, Rebekah! The wives should determine how much the husbands tell them…for some women, more information is better, and for others, more information may be incredibly damaging. Dr. Doug Weiss wrote a great e-magazine article about this issue.
In either case, though, we still strongly recommend man-to-man accountability, not just husband-to-wife.
I don’t think they meant don’t tell your wives. But the wife isn’t an authority to the husband. So the point is that they husband needs another man to be accountable to. Also, for most women if they knew to the depths their husbands are tempted and struggle it would tear them apart. That is why it is better to have another person to go to. Of course your husband shouldn’t lie to you. But you probably don’t “NEED” to know everything your husband struggles with. You just may want to know.
Another point is that a man can feel like his wife is taking leadership if he is constantly having to be accountable to her and answer to her.
Also, our choice to not hold my husband accountable isn’t because i’m an emotional wreck. Quite the opposite. I know that because of this fallen world women will try to control everything and every situation. So i know that my husband should be accountable to another man that has more authority than me. Also, its a dangerous thing to have your husband accountable to you, it can cause a wedge and push him out of the leadership role. Which i feel is far from Gods design. My husband doesn’t have to justify his actions to me. I am to trust him. I also trust the leaders and elders at our church. Does he need to ask forgiveness when he stumbles and repent? Yes. But he is held accountable to the leaders in our church and to God.
Ya know, now that i think of it.. we are ALL emotional wrecks. Sin will do that to you. To everyone.
My point was not that if I make a mistake or have a fall that I would not tell my wife. I consistently tell her when I have crossed a boundary we have agreed upon. However, it is not her job to be following me around and policing my actions. Men need other men to hold them accountable and when they blow it they do need to tell their wives. I think you missed my point.
My husband claims to be a Christian but is trying to have outside affairs, womanizes, watches porn and sings praises to God at the same time, possibly picking up prostitutes on trips and home large sums of money spent with no accounting for. Have confronted him and all he does is play the Brooklyn Tabernacle and says Amen to his pastor preaching. Has no accountability to anyone, no apology, remorse, or repentance.
I will not have sex with because I revolt at what he looks at. He also looks for teens and young girls, saw it on his phone along with horrible foul sick stuff. He is not interested in a life without because he feels he’s above reproof. I have sent his idolized Pastor a lettet telling him. I’m not going to waste my time and energy babysitting him. So sorry he had mommy issues, but he’s 74 and has chosen to love the world rather than God. He’s of the world and headed straight to hell. He has no regard for me and he has chosen to destroy his marriage. These are his choices and he will have to live with the consequences. What he needs and what I am going to do is pull that mask off so people know who he really is and not what he’s pretending to be. He’s responsible for his behavior and the consequences that follow. I have no sympathy whatsoever for him.