About the author, Ella Hutchinson

Ella is a Licensed Professional Counselor and and Certified Sex Addiction Therapist (CSAT) who is passionate about advocating for partners of sex addicts by helping them to find their voice. She served for three years as a founding board member of the Association for Partners of Sex Addicts Trauma Specialists (APSATS). Today, she proudly serves on the board of directors for the organization, Certified Sex Addiction Specialists-International (CSASI). Ella and her husband, Jeff, work together helping couples whose marriages have been invaded by sexual addiction.

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39 thoughts on “Stop the Abuse of Partners of Sex Addicts

  1. Just yesterday in a joint session as I was trying to express so deep emotions that I have been holding back my counselor interrupted me. She said “that is because he is addicted”. As if I don’t already know that!! I am trying to get out feelings that I have held in. That I am trying to process through and she she wants to remind me that he is addicted. That is not helpful for me at all. I can still feel my insides churning now as I think on it. I had quit marriage counseling a couple of months ago due to her lack of compassion for my feelings when we were together. Individually she seems to be fine. She was my counselor first.

    I love her and the help that she has given me but sometimes I feel as if she gives him excuses for his behavior. Excuses for all of the pain that he has caused me. I feel as if I have nowhere that is safe. No friends, family, now no counseling.

    • Karla, I’m sorry you are feeling misunderstood by your counselor. Have you shared with her one on one how you are feeling? It has been my observation that it can be easier to “like” a recovering sex addict more than a betrayed spouse. Many counselors see the addict’s remorse and brokenness and compare that to the partner’s anger and pain. They are often uncomfortable with the intensity of her pain. They may feel helpless as to how to guide her so they become frustrated. I have no way of knowing if this is the case with your counselor, but a discussion with her may be helpful. If you do decide to try someone else check out the website APSATS.org. I also encourage you to consider a couple’s three day intensive. You can read about it at http://www.comfortchristiancounseling.com.

    • Just to be heard, to be validated in the shocking pain of discovery – is that too much to ask? Apparently so. I have been placed on hold for the next 5 years as that was what my husband was told it would take for him to be at a place where he could BEGIN working on our relationship. At least according to the Pure Desire workbook he is now going through for the 2nd time. He sabotaged both “full” discovery sessions, and I still am unsure as to the full extent of his betrayal. He disclosed sexual relationships with over 30 different women over the last 20 years (we have been married 25 but he was not physically unfaithful until we had been married 5 years). Most were random internet or work hook ups, but I knew a handful of the women. He actually took me to the house of one of his 1 1/2 year long affairs for a party….and brought our children along. I absolutely have no idea who this person is that I married. I am not sure I will ever know him. I don’t know if I can stay any longer as he refuses to talk to me or work through our “issues.” I didn’t have any “issues” until I met him. God had healed my past and I had put it behind me 25+ years ago. But in all of the counseling sessions (I/we have gone to 5 different ones now) I have been made to feel that I was unhealthy and there was something wrong with me that needed fixing. I keep insisting that there was nothing “wrong” with me until 2 1/2 years ago when I discovered the infidelities and porn/masturbating addicting. Our current counselor “likes” my husband better and actually defends him saying he is just a bullied, skinny little boy that never measured up in life. Wow. So that is supposed to make me just let go of the hurt and pain of discovering that the person I thought was my best friend and would never betray me has been betraying me in the worst way imaginable for the last 25 years? And he continues to betray me as he has become a Meth addict for the last year. To mask and hide HIS pain! Not to mention his alcohol addiction, nicotine addiction, and porn/masturbating addiction – he says he has not had sex with anyone else for the last 3 years, but I cannot trust him to be truthful. I have no where to go. My children do not know (I told my oldest son two weeks ago and he just can’t deal with it and doesn’t want to talk about it). I am stuck. I long for death.

    • Lee, I am so, so sorry. I want to first of all address your longing for death, and ask you to please find a counselor for yourself immediately. I know you’ve been seeing someone together, but obviously that is not helpful to you. Find someone who can help YOU. If you are in imminent danger of harming yourself, please go to your nearest hospital emergency room. Your safety is the most important thing!

      It sounds to me like your husband has deep, deep issues that are not being adequately addressed in his groups or therapy. It sounds to me like those groups and therapy sessions are perhaps being used to keep you locked in this relationship while he continues to use his various addictions to deal with his pain, and keep his world together with the illusion that things are okay.

      Can I ask: do you wish to remain in this relationship? If your husband has been unfaithful so many times, the marriage covenant is well and truly broken. Of course, you do have the choice to remain but you also have the choice to recognize the broken covenant and depart. Luke wrote about porn and divorce a while back, but your situation is even more clear-cut with that many episodes of adultery.

      While it may be true that your husband has deep pain underlying his behaviors, this is NEVER an excuse for bad choices. And this should NEVER be used as a tool to manipulate you into staying in a relationship that abuses your good will.

      I see this happening in porn recovery work a lot: wives do not get the help and support they need. If this counselor is not helpful to you, if your needs are not being attended to in sessions, then then find your own counselor, someone who can help you process emotions and create healthy boundaries. Here and here are a couple of articles on boundaries.

      Peace to you, Kay

    • Unfortunately the therapist created a system where the sex addict can lie. You are a healthy woman so trust your gut feeling. You deserve to be safe. She just more less gave the sex addict a way to shift blame on to you. That is not right! Can anyone make a sane argument that immediately after discovering a spouse’s multiple infidelities, compulsive pornography use and/or various other betrayals, the best course of action is to start telling her what she has done wrong?!? The sex addict is the perpetrator not you! It sounds like that therapist needs more schooling herself.

    • Unfortunately, even sometimes therapists want to believe that a spouse can somehow control the behavior of her husband. Sometimes this comes from unresoved personal anxiety on the part of the therapist that leads them to blame the victim. Sometimes it’s a mistaken belief in an outdated idea of “codependency”–that if there’s an addict, there must be a “codependent” supporting the addict’s unhealthy choices. Sometimes it’s a lack of understanding in some other area, unknown to us.

      Here’s what I know for sure: any therapist who makes the victim feel worse, any therapist who makes the victim feel at fault, any therapist who makes the victim into the problem–that is NOT a therapist worth seeing.

      As a client, you are never under any obligation to a therapist. If you do not feel safe, if you feel blamed or shamed, you are not required to keep seeing this person! In fact, if they are a state-licensed therapist, you can make a complaint to their licensing board, explaining the difficulty you’ve experienced. Trust me, if this therapist is blaming and shaming you, they’re doing it to other victims as well, and you’ll not only be helping yourself, you’ll be protecting others from coming in contact with this harmful person as well.

      Please don’t participate in harmful therapy that protects abusers and harms victims. Walk away and find true help that truly helps.


    • Thank you so so so much for this article. I’m very triggered and activated reading it but it speaks to me. I just wrote in a journal entry that “if I have to hear one more person tell me that it’s my role in marriage to be sexually available for my husband then I am going to throw something at them.” This speaks so much to me. Thank God I am under the care of a counselor who in no way does this but this is why I have shared with no one but her that my husband has relapsed on pornography after 7 years “clean.” I understand he’s an addict. I am an alcoholic who’s been in recovery for 17 years–I KNOW what addicts try to do to escape blame for their choices and I hear it loud and clear from him. I can handle that. But I cannot handle other (maybe well-intentioned) people tell me how I have contributed to HIS addiction. I haven’t reached out to anyone yet besides my counselor b/c I just can’t allow the risk of being even more traumatized than I already am. But thank you for this article and the resources in it. And thank you for acknowledging that so many of us who deal with a spouse’s porn addiction or other betrayal are, in fact, healthy. So many don’t acknowledge or realize that.

  2. Thank you Ella. After discovering my husband’s secret, it has been me that has been asked to help him and to forgive and forget. It has been me our families have said should help him because he is ‘weak’ and he needs me. I have been made to feel guilty for wanting to separate. Our families have used my children against me, saying I will destroy their lives if I divorce him. My character has been attacked, suggesting I made him do it. His addiction was there well before I came into the picture, he brought it into our marriage. They all know this. Nevertheless, all the expectations of his recovery are laid on me. So if I don’t help him or if we separate, it will all be my fault. He did this, he caused this…I didn’t! Yet, somehow he gets away with it and all eyes are on me to ‘get over it’. When I defend myself, I get shut down. When I express my hurt, I get shut down. My heart breaks for every woman who has to go through this.

  3. BULLS EYE!!! We NEED tons more of these resources poured out in articles everywhere for the SA and the spouse. Cannot express enough on this very crucial issue. Man and woman up people and accept your responsibility that you caused and now need to do everything that is possible yourself to restore this with your spouse bc you created their very own world yourself. Live in it with them and be the victim with them….it’s too hard is an excuse. How do you think they feel inside and out? Much worse than your excuse!

  4. Thank you, Ella. This needs to be said over and over again. You were so helpful in helping me to understand that I was not crazy and that this was not my fault and that the most redeeming thing we can do is to let our addicted spouse deal with the consequences of their infidelity.

  5. A lot of what you wrote is true, but I didn’t get the sense that you are systematically aware is in the systems theory of Licensed Marriage And Family Therapist. Without that perspective the spouse, whether make or female isn’t getting the help they need. With more women having affairs and looking at porn, we need a systematic approach for the couple system, not just an approach for wives.

    • Harry, first, in regard to your gender comment, I don’t deny that this is an issue either gender can struggle with. But my calling at this time in my life is to work with wives of sex addicts.

      About the rest of your comment, having read the chapters for the spouse of a sex addict and for marriage recovery in your book, I think that helps me put your comment into context. In these chapters you spend a lot of time making your point that the spouse of the addict is a sinner as well (agreed), is dysfunctional as well (aren’t we all!) and should avoid “self-pity”. You advise her by telling her “don’t overreact” at the discovery of the extent of her husband’s acting out. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I think I hear you saying that by taking my approach I’d be ignoring the wife’s role in the dysfunction in the marriage.

      This is a topic that is hard for me to address briefly, but basically I see early marital intervention after discovery or disclosure as looking very different from traditional marriage counseling. I view it as crisis intervention and stabilization. At this point the focus is specifically on the impact of the addiction on the marriage and the partner. In this context, the partner is a victim of the addict’s behaviors and choices. Yes, I said the ugly V word. I don’t claim that she is perfect or doesn’t have plenty of her own faults. But for now, to best help the couple heal, the injured spouse’s extreme trauma must be validated and addressed first.

      Imagine if a woman came into the emergency room after her husband beat her up with bruises all over her body. Wouldn’t those wounds be treated long before the social worker suggested she start looking at the role she had to play in the dysfunction of the relationship or pointed out that her husband isn’t the only one with faults? In fact, if she started questioning why she didn’t recognize his issues earlier in the relationship and what is wrong with her for choosing him, I hope the social worker would say, “Whoa, slow down, honey. Let your body rest so you can heal. Let the swelling go down and the bruises begin to fade first”. The only difference here is that the wounds to the partner of a sex addict are invisible and they will take much longer to heal.

    • Harry, I’d recommend you familiarize yourself with the work of Jason and Shelley Martinkus. Having walked through this journey (and Jason having become an LPC) I believe they have found the most effective approach to couples work. To summarize, “in the early days the husband has to do 90% of the work of healing the relationship… maybe she’s got 10% to own.” As he does his work and grows and matures (spiritually, emotionally, etc), makes amends and lives transparently… she will IN TIME (e.g. a few years down the road) begin to be healed enough to start to look at her own family or origin and other issues that are affecting the relationship. Couples who are using this approach, I believe are seeing the most thorough healing for the individuals and the relationship as a whole. Learning intimacy (vulnerability, humility, other-centered focus) is key to an addicts’ healing (and yes, you can swap the genders around where “she” is the addict) so this approach is ideal for everyone involved (including the often forgotten children).

  6. To the spouses of sexual addicts: you are not a co-addict. Seventeen years ago I learned about my husband’s porn addiction. For a few years we went through various strategies of counseling, support groups and Christian self-help books. At the time, there were so few resources. The co-addict model was the only viable one. Our pastor flat-out told me that I was the cause because I was not fulfilling my husband’s sexual needs. But the addiction had begun long before I even met him. In the end, it was my husband who left the marriage because he could not deal with the insistence that pornography was hurting him, me, our children, and others. I was right to commit to telling him it was hurting him, me, our children, and others. I was not a co-addict. I can prove it: the tendencies I had to detective work were because I was terrified that I was exposed to dangers, including STDs as his addiction escalated. Those behaviours disappeared when the addict was not in the house. Ergo, I was not an addict. I was a survivor. If you put someone in a live war zone, they are going to do bizarre behaviours to survive. It does not mean that the behaviours are healthy or good, but do not misunderstand– the spouse did not cause the war, start the war, or escalate the war. The war is waged by Satan against marriages, healthy people and innocent people.

    • Thank you for this. Spouses are so often traumatized by the betrayal, and then further traumatized by being told it’s their fault. Thank you for speaking out against those heinous lies. Peace to you, Kay

  7. Is there a “like” button that I can press 2,000 times? ha, ha!! This is SOOOO NEEDED!!! My husband and I separated almost a year ago. After 20 years of the same cycle, and after at least half as many counselors who treated me as you described, all I can say is….THANK YOU!!! Our separation was needed because I was not being allowed to heal, by my husband and others. But, then I had my husband and a friend tell me how much I needed Celebrate Recovery, the type of 12 step program you described. I couldn’t understand why I felt that I STILL wasn’t healing! It took a couple of months to see that the ‘hurt’ part of their approach was in name only (this will differ between each CR I am sure).

    My husband has made multiple statements about “when you start addressing your problems…” Oh, yes, I have them! But by golly, after 20 years of betrayal (it was not a case of him acting out for 20 years without me knowing, and then I found out. Instead it was finding out 20 years ago he had a porn problem, and being betrayed for 20 years.) I think I not only NEED the time to heal, but by this point I deserve to heal. It has been hard to be my own advocate when I have person after person telling me that isn’t ‘allowed’, that healthy boundaries are not Christian, etc.

    I know when I come to the other side of this that I want to help other women, so that they do not feel alone through this!

    • Kerri, you are very welcome! I’m glad you found my article helpful. This reality is so tragic, but people like you and me can make a difference. Keep on being your own advocate! Ella

  8. I’ve been with my bf for over three years but we were high school friends over twenty years ago, (I guess we needed 20 years apart to have children enlist in bad relationships and live in misery before we would find each other again and start our own relationship?) his sex addiction is not new info I’ve known and have tried to live with it since day one but not peacefully and it’s caused physical and emotional pain, exhaustion, depression etc…but about a year ago something new did happen…I started hearing him whispering a lot when I was out of the room leaving him alone in another. He of course has always denied it and calls me delusional schizophrenic crazy etc..which lead me to recording him but that only caused rage and more denial and also claims of white noise static the tv someone else everything and anything but not him. I also along with him whispering can hear a woman whispering and at times moaning in response and I can’t make out specific words but it seems as if their talking dirty to each other. I’ll be the first to say he is faithful at least I believe whole heartedly that he hasn’t been with another person physically but I know in my heart and soul he is talking to a lady but how is still a mystery because his phone will not be with him or either of his tablets and I’ve looked for blue tooths or ear gadgets. (Kind of) “Short story” (kind of)”long” when I confront him he gets irate denies it sometimes hits me forcing me to back down and drop the matter he tells our friends in a way that of course makes me look like the jealous insecure girlfriend when in fact I’m only trying to prove otherwise and let me add I do not mind sex at all and even have done things that I don’t particularly care for and also things that are painful and not so comfortable in order to please him and I don’t mind his viewing of porn 24/7 well besides when he’s at work which he is a hard worker and great supporter. I am so upset and consumed by this it’s killing me and us and I’m just asking him to admit what he’s doing and stop making me feel insane but he won’t and when I say it’s every time I leave the room I’m not exaggerating I can’t walk out of the room and then immediately walk right back in without a whisper of some sort in the background and his comment will be”oh yeah I just have girls sitting by their phone 24/7 waiting for me to call on them” but that’s the way it is I’ve even accused him of having a virtual reality device of some sort I don’t know im at a loss of some sort and only asking for something help suggestions empathy anything but not critiscism blame ridicule or even a ride to a padded cell I’ve already been given all that ive even got that ride once I’m ready for it and out of all my wits or ideas thanks for listening or I should say reading oh by the way we are currently living apart due to no other choice till we can find another place to live but we see each other everyday!!

    • Hi there. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what’s going on with your boyfriend, but I do hear the pain you’re feeling, and I want to give you one piece of advice: find a counselor for yourself right away. Find that safe person who can help you process your emotions, and decide on healthy boundaries for you. Whatever your boyfriend is or isn’t doing, whatever he chooses, YOU choose good health for you. Find the help and support you need, so that you can make good decisions for you. Peace, Kay

    • It’s terribly difficult. The crazy making. The incessant lies. The gas lighting. Having someone you love and should be able to trust try to destroy your trust in yourself and your own observations. What’s worse is the behaviours, followed by “I love you’s”. It’s a horrible place to be in. I’m sorry any of us have to be anywhere near it. Just know you’re not losing your mind, you’re not crazy, and you are completely worth calmness and being in a safe place.

  9. Excellent article, as always, Ella. Thank you so much for your advocacy for us partners — and for your research into where the current traps lie for us. I just left a review on Amazon of the Castimonia book after reading through that chapter (don’t “punish him” (presumably he means “express your pain”) for looking twice or even three times at a provocatively dressed woman… leave it to his accountability group?) What?? How self-serving is that advice? (despite the fact that they call themselves “servants of Christ”).

  10. Hi Kay, I have been in the marriage 12 years and have recently discovered of my husbands porn addiction. He claims it is nothing more than watching porn once a week but I know for a fact it’s much more than that bc I have caught him chatting on crazy websites and sending personal messages not to mention watching gay pornography. There has been no intimate relationship between us for last 10 years, he always blamed it on ED. After catching him and confrontation he has agreed to being a porn addict from a very early age but still denies anything beyond that. I’m trying to find answers by going into therapy sessions with his therapist and the marriage and family counselor. I was taken a back at my previous session when the therapist went on finding faults in me as a wife instead and blaming me for being the cause of his addiction. Already in pain and anger of betrayal, she was encouraging him to stab more wounds on me. He portays as being the victim of silent treatment by me. I know I’m not perfect but I can say I gave this relationship it’s best. He cheated me by getting into this marriage on lies in the first place? I need help, the councilor denied my right to know the truth. According to her it was not a good idea for me know any more about his problems but to identify my faults as a wife. I’m torn apart, I feel like I’m responsible for my kids and their future, I can’t make a decision without knowing the full truth and I’m tired of giving him chances without questioning him.

    • I am so, so sorry that on top of this terrible situation with your husband you are now also the victim of an incompetent counselor.

      I WOULD ENCOURAGE YOU TO FILE A COMPLAINT WITH THAT COUNSELOR’S STATE LICENSING BOARD. Blaming you for your spouse’s choices is the height of incompetence and unethical practice.

      I would also encourage you to stop attending sessions with that therapist, as it sounds like your husband has managed to manipulate the therapist quite seriously. This can happen with therapists who are not experienced in dealing with sexual addiction. If he is serious about his problem he really should be seeing a Certified Sex Addiction Therapist (CSAT).

      I really think it is a mistake to conceptualize this as a couples’ problem; this is an individual with an addiction that needs to be dealt with. Yes, that addiction impacts the marriage deeply. But unless the addiction is addressed, the marriage issues cannot be addressed.

      If you need help and support (and I imagine that you do!) I would encourage you to look for a counselor of your own. You can check the directory at Psychology Today, or the American Association of Christian Counselors. You might also appreciate the online resource, Bloom, where there are forums, classes, and various resources for recovery.

      When it comes to “the full truth”–well, you may never know exactly what he has been doing. But you DO know the broad outlines of the problem, and you DO know how it impacts you, and you DO know how he has managed to flip the situation around so it is your fault instead of his responsibility. And he has even managed to engage a therapist in that delusional world. I would say that you have plenty of information. Consider what healthy boundaries might look like, given what you already know. Here and here are a couple of articles. Remember whatever he chooses, you can choose to be healthy and well. In the absence of the details you would like to have, give yourself a chance instead. Trust yourself. Make decisions that lead to peace and safety and light in your life.

      Peace to you, Kay

  11. These arrogant little boys, SAs, live to break rules and getting awaay with it. The kinder and more trusting the wife is, the more they enjoy their deceit. When caught and confronted, they will try every lie and denial known on earth to avoid taking responsibility for their own behavior. They are immoral, sadistic, incurable, immature, selfish cancers on humanity.

    • Amen, Susangh! I’m so tired of trying to convince myself that my man is really a “good person” and that he really loves me – that he just has a problem. Bullshit! I hope ALL victims run as fast & far as they can from these monsters & save themselves a ton of hurt & anguish. Your post empowers me tremendously.

    • I have to agree with you. I have had the most awful time with my ex. His manipulative behaviour is UNBELIEVABLY bad through and through. S and M was his thing and it was clear that he hated the woman for “indulging ” him. What we do to “please” is heartbreaking.
      I have walked away from this monster.
      He threatened suicide, proclaimed his undying love constantly, and became re addicted to me…… until the next one came along that is!
      These people are border line psychopaths and should be treated accordingly. Your life IS in danger. They cannot stop. Safe words, pushing the sexual boundaries etc, will end in someones demise! Flee and don’t look back!

    • I agree, except mine is an arrogant little girl. She refuses to take any responsibility, cheated on me like it was her job for several years, lied without compunction, gaslighted, deflected blame toward me, etc.

      Otherwise, I agree with your comments. They are self-absorbed, and unfortunately, they are being given license to get away with it under the questionable umbra of “sex addiction”.

      Everyone else, everything else, is to blame. Not her. She’s a “great person” in her mind, and everyone else is the cause of our problems. Consequences should not be applied to her, because the “addiction” renders her blameless, as if it actually erases them from having happened. I love her, but she will never change if she is continually enabled by the psychological establishment in which she believes, and which has already exonerated her.

  12. *Our* marriage therapist, a female told me I wasn’t being understanding enough and that I should just trust my husband because he was doing well. And that I was just as much to blame for my husbands porn addiction as he was. It takes two to tango. I should be there for him while he was healing and not to put too many demands or requests on him because it might hurt his present success. We saw her 3 times before I stood up and asked her point blank when she was going to address my issues of his betrayal and constant avoiding of issues important to our marriage. She told me to trust him, and I stoodup and told her she sucked as a woman and a therapist. I never saw her again and neither did my husband. She was worthless in helping to navigate the world of pornography.

  13. Robert Weiss in his book “Getting out to the doghouse” states that disclosure shouldn’t be given if it is to the detriment of the sex addict i.e. if your wife is planning on filing for divorce. This approach is egregious in its lack of ethics or consideration of the spread of STD’s and the possibility of abuse of children. You quoting Robert Weiss here, in my opinion, diminishes your credibility. Don’t quote colluders of addicts who create increased trauma for partners in the back while promoting “safe space” in the front. You quoting this man implies to parters that he is safe, when he in fact is representative of an organization that creates “specialists’ through short time frames of inadequate training and does not insist that sex addicts get a full mental health assessment to rule out personality disorders (creating partner and child abuse) and to identify other factors driving the sexual compulsivity, which in fact is only a symptom of underlying problems.
    If the SA does have PD and is an abuser, no amount of sobriety is going to change the abusive behaviour until he faces it and gets appropriate help.

    • I was bfs accountability partner for 7 months (bad idea!) I would read daily reports on his every move. it felt weird. he seemed to be doing ok but it was making me crazy to read the reports wondering what I would find. I finally got off of being a partner and then asked weeks later to go back on it
      little did I know it had recorded everything since I had been removed from the site and I was sick from what I found. lots of underage sites, escort services, voyeur webcams spying on teens…rape…women being demoralized…Chinese massage parlors. S&M and he told me he hasn’t viewed it for 2 weeks it was only days. ladies…I told his family and we put him in to a rehab home for sex and porn addicts for almost 2 months. he agreed to it. I’m relieved he’s in there getting help. what your man admits to is just a small portion of the depravity. they cannot be trusted. luckily I’m not married to.him. he wants me as part of his treatment plan. and to maybe stay with him
      what would u do. I feel guilty abandoning him during this intense time of healing but I’m.spent. no one should have to continually go through this sick trauma. the bible is clear about lust. it’s cheating. but…now add lying and possibly putting your health at risk as his behaviors escalate..educate yourselves. go to a browser and type the effects of porn on the brain and how he will escalate with the material he views. it destroys intimacy and you can’t have a committed loving and respectful loving marriage if he’s sharing his feelings and sexuality with a bunch of sleaze over a computer. don’t compromise who you are or make excuses for his illness. if he’s not willing to get help…accountability partners…therapy…God, total transparency , filters in computer and phone ( not cool proof) then he is not going to change. stop competing against this smut. you didn’t sign up for this and you’re not doing this to.him. I’m going to a therapist now and a group for women of partners who’ve shattered trust with this sick.issue.
      in.glad my partner is in live in rehab now. no guarantees it will stick once he’s out in 2months but he deserves a chance. check out covenant eyes website too. they have good articles. u can google alot on porn use and it’s negative effects or women suffering from.spouses porn use. you’ll find a TON.
      I’m.so sorry you are going through this..if it doesn’t stop…then I think you need to.
      save yourself. I’ve read that men will seek prostitutes…child porn..and Lord knows what else are often times genres porn users go to because regular photos are boring after a while and hardcore and live are what can satisfy. and soon not even that then the guys can’t even get aroused from a real.person and get E.D.
      the brain chemistry is altered. its unreal. porn is a true epidemic in our society and teens are now viewing it at an alarming rate and can’t even relate to a real girl or expect their prom date to be porn. boys can’t hold conversations with girls now and they are going to doctors now at an early age because they can’t get it up anymore. damaged at 18. so sad. pitiful dirty society that objectifies people. it’s not all a guy issue. 1 in 3 women view porn as well and addiction is rampant. God be with you as you heal….but u can’t truly if nothing has changed. in an EXPERT on this gross topic because I’ve read So much. get the book ” mending a shattered heart” by Stephanie Carnes PhD. it’s for women who’s partners do this….this vial act designed by God as a loving exchange between 2 people expressing love. porn is a fake one sided selfish love of self. praying you all have hope. clarity. please seek help. don’t be silent in your pain and trust is earned. can u anymore? and what do you need to do to save yourself in the end.
      love to you all~

  14. I never get a reply back on here. What are we to do then? How am I to know which therapist to talk to? My husband has made plans to see a counselor, but didn’t mention me. Left me out of it. I encouraged him to seek help for his addictions, but I guess he didn’t realize we both need help and healing.

  15. I am praying that someone on this site can help me. My ex partner is an addict. He becomes addicted to ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. His latest addiction is sex and love based. We split up 8 months ago and I asked him to move out of the flat that i own in my sole name. However, we had a few friends in common. Having spoken to a couple of these “friends” it is clear that he has said some terrible things about me in order to get the “fix” of another woman.
    I now feel unable to walk down my local shopping street, I drive and hide whenever I can. I feel that the women he involved in his sordid game believe him. He is incredibly plausible. What can I do?? Can anyone help me to get my respect and the truth of it all out there? How can I stop these falsehoods? He is in counselling, but he has had a history of repeated relapsing with ALL his addictions, and although he says when he gets to the 9th step (i think that is the “make amends ” step ) he will send all the people involved the truth statement…… I don’t believe him. My life is curtailed hugely by all of this, and I don’t know what to do?

    • I am so, so sorry.

      The sad reality is, you can’t control what another person will say, and you can’t control what other people will think and believe.

      However, the truth will come out. You saw the reality, right? You had the insight to see the truth about him, and you had the strength to break it off with him. Good for you! Now trust that others will do the same! Of course it may take time for them to see the truth, just like it probably did for you.

      I would say this: you live your life with strength, truth, and compassion. You live in the truth, and release him to live in any way that works for him.

      At this point, it sounds like he is still controlling a large part of your life, even though you’ve broken up. You might consider whether it’s time to cut those bonds as well. You can choose to have no contact with him, and no contact with people who will carry his tales to you. What would your life be like if you didn’t know what he was saying or doing? What kind of freedom would you have?

      Here and here are some articles about boundaries that might help as you think through what is healthy for you.


  16. My BF of two years has a serious addiction to talking to other women . Usually through social media inappropriately, but texting as well. Women he meets at places he frequents, women at his job, everywhere! Our counselor said she could not help him and he needed one on one extensive therapy with a therapist. He has an appointment with the new guy next week. I am afraid he will go in and lie to him. About what he does and about me. Although I have never been unfaithful, he tells people I have boy toys and he can’t handle all the men I talk to. Is it wrong for me to want to go with him at least the first time to make sure he tells the truth?

    • Mel,

      If he’s meeting up with other women, and if he’s lying about you, why exactly are you with him?

      It’s not “wrong” to want to go with him to therapy, but what is the point? If the only way he can be honest is when you’re standing over him, what do you think an ongoing relationship will be like?

      I would say, let his guy go. Let him do whatever he needs to do.

      You continue in therapy, though, to discover why it’s okay with you to be mistreated this way.

      May you find a life that reflects your true value and worth!


  17. Wow, I love this article. I was doing great with everything- my husband and I split, I’m a single mom to two small children now, I was already the breadwinner and working a lot, I won an award at work, I even wrote a book (unrelated) and have excelled despite the discovery just six months ago. A huge part of this is because my SA has been incredibly supportive and has gotten extensive help. He even moved next door to his sponsor and goes to daily meetings at a minimum.

    I never felt like anything was my fault until I walked into a 12-step spouse meeting where I was told I needed to introduce myself using a “coaddict” label. I said “no” because I’m not a coaddict and left. The women looked at ME like I was the insane one.

    Then my husband and I went to counseling to determine how to best handle the children. Within two minutes the counselor labeled me a coaddict. I have NO characteristics of a coaddict or codependent. Even my SA agrees and walked out with me. It was THIS two minute meeting that hurt me more than anything else has in the last six months. There is no way the codependent model a healthy way of dealing with spouses. I refuse to take blame for a condition my ex had since he was eight years old. I had plenty of healthy relationships. My parents were great parents. I had no holes to fill. We had a great marriage and most who knew us thought we were the perfect couple. I didn’t know. Not at any level did I know. I find it hard to believe that in this day and age the sexism is so rampant that spouses can be blamed at all. Like you stated, sure there are enabling ones. It wasn’t me though. I never enabled. I am an independent, hard-working mom and he sought out me for my characteristics, not the other way around. Thank you for trying to change this hell that so many spouses go through. I am thankful I have the ability to set boundaries for myself that I do. And this boundaries are: I will not take blame for my SA.

    • Thank you so much for sharing your story of strength and healthy boundaries! You ARE NOT TO BLAME for your spouse’s choices, EVER!

      Peace to you, and thank you for sharing these words of wisdom and freedom here.

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