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Talking Trauma: From Down Under

Last Updated: May 18, 2021

Lisa Taylor
Lisa Taylor

Lisa Taylor (CPSAS candidate) is a trauma survivor, mother of three, and award-winning author living in New Zealand. The results of her research appear in her blog, the Compassion video series, and in her recent book Beyond Betrayal: How God is Healing Women (and Couples) from Infidelity.

If you had 30- 40 minutes in front of an audience of pastors and counselors, what would you say? What about if the topic was limited to sex and porn addiction?

This was the situation that I, as an author and wife of a recovering pornography addict, found myself in a couple weeks ago in Auckland, New Zealand. The event was a New Zealand first—a four-day training in sexual addiction for counselors and church leaders by IACSAS: The International Association of Certified Sex Addiction Specialists.

Pornography addiction has reached epidemic proportions all over the world, and New Zealand is no exception. According to a study conducted by Family Safe Media, New Zealand has the third highest rate per capita in the world of pornography consumption. A 2009 government study shows that New Zealand teens (15-17) are the largest group of consumers of child pornography in the country. Sex offending rates here are so high that only a few years ago it was the number one reason a person was likely to be incarcerated.

These are important facts for counselors and clergy to be aware of. However, what I decided to talk to the IACSAS trainees about was, not so much the porn industry’s direct victims (sex workers and porn addicts), but its collateral damage. I was there to talk about the suffering of those in relationship with the porn consumer – particularly the wives of sex addicts.

Last year, as part of the research for my book Beyond Betrayal: How God is Healing Women (and Couples) from Infidelity – I conducted the largest worldwide survey of wives of sex addicts. In that survey, and the two that followed, hundreds of women shared their stories: stories of traumatic stress reactions, harmful therapeutic treatment models, and spiritual crisis.

Over the next several weeks I’ll summarize what I shared with the IACSAS attendees about these various issues. These points are also captured in the video presentation, Compassion, which I aired at the event.

Betrayal Causes Trauma

The first point I made is that marital betrayal, in any form, can traumatize. This understanding of betrayal’s effects was first put forward by therapists Dr. Barbara Steffens and Dr. Omar Minwalla. Over the past decade women around the world have said they find that this “trauma model” resonates with them in their experience of their husband’s betrayal. This is equally true whether the betrayal was a physical affair with intercourse, or infidelity in a non-physical form such as porn use.

In fact 98% of the nearly 700 respondents to my first survey said they suffered symptoms of trauma on discovery of their husband’s infidelity. Said one respondent, “I have had three severe anxiety attacks. After the first one was witnessed by my children, I began to keep a paper bag in my nightstand drawer.”

Another respondent stated: “[I experienced] terror and an inability to gain control of my life especially as a parent. [I] couldn’t leave the house except very short excursions. [I had] feelings of being trapped.”

Moreover, many women recounted experiencing bouts of anger or rage (87%) and struggles with depression (93%).

Partner Trauma and Health

Survey respondents also noted the shock and trauma of discovering their husband’s porn use, and other forms of sexual addiction, affected their physical health.

Health effects were sometimes immediate and violent such as with the following respondents:

  • “I went catatonic on the floor for about two hours.”
  • “I lost my menstrual cycle for nine months.”
  • “I suffered a mild heart attack.”
  • “I suffered a miscarriage.”

In other cases, the effects of betrayal trauma on a woman’s health were more gradual. Thus, survey responses included such accounts as:

  • “I developed IBS.”
  • “My startle reflex was out of control, I’d know he was in the room and after a long silence just him speaking would cause me to jump through the roof.”
  • “I lost significant weight, then regained even more weight.”

Other health effects reported were disrupted sleep (82%), mental confusion (75%), and disruption to normal eating habits (69%).

Thus, there can be little question that marital betrayal, in such forms as porn use, hits wives hard. However, as I demonstrate in Compassion (and hope to show in this series of articles…) the story doesn’t have to end there.

Sam Black of Covenant Eyes was another presenter at the IACSAS New Zealand event. Like my own message, Sam’s involved some uncomfortable statistics about how our pornified culture is harming families. However, his message didn’t end there either. Event attendees walked away from Sam’s talk better equipped to help parents prevent the porn steamroller from flattening the next generation.

That’s good news for children, teens, men, and women down under.

  • Comments on: Talking Trauma: From Down Under
    1. It helps a lot just to know one is not alone with a husband addicted to porn. I hope some day he will realize what he is doing to the marriage.

    2. M. Taylor

      I would say that teens 15-17 are the largest consumers of child pornography because of the way we define children. In some places in the united states kids as old as 17 are defined as children. Have you seen 17-year-olds? They are as bigger than full grown adults now. They rob, rape, steal, kill, drink, drug, lie, and cheat. I assure you they are not “children”. And if they are “children”, I want you to march down to your local prison where hundreds of thousands of underage boys are waiting to go to the hell of prison because they are held responsible for their choices as “children”. Really it is a double standard. Boys are always held responsible for their choices but amazingly an underage girl is never held accountable for hers. Really that is what this guest author is getting at. It is all hypocrisy and a double standard. Amazing how an underage girl can consent to sex and not be held responsible for her choice. Yet, and underage boy is held accountable for his choices. Who are we really fooling? Only ourselves.

      • I don’t I disagree that the definition of child pornography is based on our definition of children—and that these teens are culpable for their decisions about using an making porn—but I fail to see why this means this isn’t a cause for alarm.

      • In New Zealand the age of consent is 16. Thus “children” will be defined as those under the age of 16. The study (which you can view here: https://www.dia.govt.nz/Pubforms.nsf/URL/entirereport.pdf/$file/entirereport.pdf ) is particularly concerned with the trading of child porn. As the study author, Amy Carr states: “Clearly, these findings are of significant concern, especially as the production of much child pornography involves sexual abuse of children.”

      • Amber T.

        You have a problem. You’re in the denial phase.

    3. dd

      I am just grateful that I found this. TRAUMA, YES. (Though I have had intensive trauma care training, I personally am still recovering from my husbands betrayal, who after 8 years is still not completely free). My health has been affected, I have stood in grace, forgiveness, and the power of GOD’s word. The layers of this darkness ran deep in my husband, and God is faithfully taking the layers off both of us. I have been to prayer counselling, and had great personal breakthroughs, but still live with the scorn of my husbands own shame, anger and pain that is often displaced upon on family. I am looking forward to reading about others who have had hope restored and marriages restored. I know in my heart this is what Father God wants for us.

      • Kay Bruner

        Recovery from deep trauma takes a long time. And if your husband is still displacing his shame on you, that impedes your healing as you’re re-traumatized with each new incident. You might like my memoir, As Soon As I Fell, which is available at Amazon. My story is that our marriage is better today than it ever was before porn. But that’s because my husband has been willing to not just do good behavioral work, but deep emotional work as well. There’s so much more to recovery than “not looking at porn”! It really is about being able to do resolve that shame, so that there’s not the targeting with defense mechanisms and gaslighting. It really is about personal responsibility. And, on our part, really good boundaries. Restoration is absolutely what God wants for us! But he always leaves us with the choice, and that’s the hard part! Blessings, Kay

      • I’m glad the article was helpful. Kay makes some good points below about things to think about (and pray about). It is very difficult to live in a home where your (and Christ’s) values are not lived out. That results in severe pain, and it’s possible that what God wants you to do is take a stand for righteousness (many, many men only get help once their wife takes a stand like that — I give more on this in my book, Beyond Betrayal). God is in the business of saving souls (including yours, your childrens’ and your husband’s) and making us more Christ-like. This is always the number one priority. The saving of the marriage can be a bi-product of that. Sometimes though, it’s not, and that’s ok too. Whatever happens there… He will never leave us or forsake us.

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