When we get sick we often desire immediate relief of the symptoms (backache, headache, fever, etc.) and we are less concerned with the illness itself in the heat of the moment. We just want the pain to go away. That’s often how we treat spiritual illnesses. We pray for God to deliver us from the [...]
After admitting their porn problem, a lot of men get angry and annoyed when their wives bring the subject up. The wife wants to heal and feels like she needs to communicate these things in order to overcome this. He, however, feels like they need to move on to overcome this. Imagine if you murdered [...]
When I first met George he said he always wanted to find a woman who loved Jesus more than she’d love him. He doted over the fact that I fit that criteria. I was so in love with Jesus back then, nothing could shake me. Or so I thought. My relationship with Jesus was based [...]
The following letter is a journal entry I wrote while going through the storm that porn brought to my marriage. Dearest Jesus, For so many months I’ve wondered if you even existed. How could a God who loves me desert me and allow me to be rejected like this? How could a God who loves [...]
The devil is real. It took a long time for me to realize the depth of that truth. Of course I knew he existed, but I never gave much thought to him, and never cared to, until he covered my marriage in the slime of his lies. I had no choice but to face him, [...]
As I battled with insecurities after discovering my husband’s porn addiction, I often blamed “the other woman” for my problems. I hated everything about her. Then, at some point during my healing process I started writing my novel, Exposed. As I researched for Exposed I discovered countless stories of ex-porn stars. Horrible stories. My eyes [...]
Tears. Every day. They saturated my pillows. George didn’t know I cried myself to sleep every night. He didn’t know I imagined those women all day and night, even in my dreams. He didn’t know the torment I went through because telling him only made it worse. So I suffered alone and grew more depressed [...]
Your insecurities will be a struggle for you for the rest of your life. That’s encouraging, isn’t it? It gets better, but it takes time and changes in your own life. I don’t normally tell the world (through blog land) what I’ve done to get to the place I have because most people think I’m [...]
Tears betray your pillow and meet your lips and you wonder how betrayal has become such a faithful word in your life. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. You loved him when you said those vows; now it’s hard to remember what you ever loved. There are pieces you remember, but everything is a [...]
When a husband brings porn into the marriage, he brings other women to their marriage bed. It’s stained with the images of other people. Who wants to make love on a stained bed? It has to be cleaned first. Husband and wife, together, need to wash the sheets, not obsess over whether they are clean [...]
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